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Jul 17, 2009 - 27 comments

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When I got home from work last night I could tell Daisy was not as good as the day before and this morning she seemed a little less good.  When she saw I was awake she came and slept on my chest for a little bit while I pet her. She purred, but had very little energy.  She rested the length of her body along my body on top of me and rested her chin on my shoulder and closed her eyes.  She's gotten so little compared to the 17 lbs. she used to be.  She's not in discomfort - thankfully the pain meds are helping with that and the Pro Gut is keeping her tummy in check, but the tumor is starting to grow again (the prednisone helped reduce it a little for a bit there) and so I'm not sure how much longer we'll have her.  She is still eating, but not as much as she was a couple days ago.  

It was very sweet with her this morning.  One of my other girls, Abby, came up and laid on my other side and began grooming Daisy and they both purred.  It was the sweetest thing and then Abby just laid there next to Daisy on me for about 15 minutes.  I didn't want to move and go to work.  I wanted to stay just like that forever!  

Guys, this is breaking my heart and I don't know how it's possible to continue crying so much!  UGH!  

Thanks for all your support and kind words - it has helped me tremendously!  

Hugs,
Janet

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by turkee23, Jul 17, 2009
im sorry ,.....your in my prayers!....god is good ...

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by NautyOne, Jul 17, 2009
Hey Sweet Pea.......Please understand that I cannot bring myself to read your posts about Daisy.  I am still going through torture losing both my dogs recently.  Please know that I understand what you are going through.  I wish I could be there for you more, but I am so sorry.  I just can't.  I hope you understand, I really hope you do.

You know I love you, and my thoughts are always with you and Daisy.....

Luv,
Nauty...............

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by adgal, Jul 17, 2009
I know we don't know each other but as a fellow cat lover (and momma to 2 beautiful fur babies of my own) I just wanted to say how sorry I am that your Daisy is not feeling so well.  She is lucky to be so loved and to have you.  Take care and I wish you and Daisy well.

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by NautyOne, Jul 17, 2009
Oh, [email protected] was meant to be a private message.......oh, well.......

give daisy a gentle hug and a kiss from me.........<3

~~hugs~~~

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by Juliaschill, Jul 17, 2009
I will send my best wishes along alos, I too love cats but have a son with CF so can not have any in my home at this time but I remember my cat when i was growing up and she was my best friend, my thoughts are with you, huggs Julia

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 18, 2009
Thanks for the good wishes everyone!  

V:  I completely understand sweetie!  I love you too!  I am keeping you in my prayers too!  

Hugs,
Janet

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by Piparskeggr, Jul 18, 2009
Hey Janet;

I have been so touched by the way you've tried with Daisy, kind of like ultra-personal hospice care ,-)

Anita and I did something similar for Queen Victoria (11/1982 - 05/2000) in her final days, even went as far as making an oxygen tent out of her carrier, she was having breathing difficulties near the end.

QV's sister, Calamity Jane (11/1982 - 03/2004), we learned how to give her sub-q fluids and did that for over 2 years to help her kidneys remain functional.

Victoria died in her sleep in her favorite spot under the bed in the guest room.  Cammie, we had the vet give her the "Final Grace" after 2 strokes, about a week apart; she'd been responding to treatment after the first, the second really destroyed her.

Cried hard for both those dam' cats...

So, I can see how and why you feel and act as you do with Daisy.

Take care - Pip

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 18, 2009
Pip:

Thanks!  To me, when we take on the responsibility of our pets, they become family and we are responsible to give them the care they deserve.  

We also had two males (Robear & Magnum who were litter mates) for 16 and 17 years.  Robear (1987 to 2005) & Magnum (1987 to 2004).  Magnum also had issues with his kidneys and we did SubQ for about 2 years and he lived those extra 2 years happily.  It sounds very similar to your Calamity Jane.  We never knew what happened to Robear, he just all of a sudden lost weight in like a week and got extremely ill prior to his vet appointment and we ended up having to put him down.  The vet suspected cancer.  We had them both cremated and had their remains placed in cedar boxes with their names engraved on them.  I'll do the same for Daisy!  I can't even believe I'm typing that so soon in her life.  

I really have appreciated your kindness and you words of comfort and friendship!

Hugs,
Janet

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by Piparskeggr, Jul 18, 2009
Janet;

You're welcome.

I try to be the man my mom and dad raised me to be, I still want them to smile when they see me.

What happened to Robear sounds like how our Cerridwen (1984 - 2000) went, but with her it was less than 24 hours.   The vet at the emergency clinic where we brought her said it looked like massive liver and kidney failure.  She died in my lap after the vet gave her that final injection.  To this day I believe her eyes cleared at the last moment as she looked up, almost like saying, it's okay, time for me to go.

I've been pretty callous at times, but the furry little beasts always get to me.  8-)

blessings of the day - Pip

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by Jade59, Jul 19, 2009
Hi Janet,

Daisy's plight has recently been brought to my attention.  I read this entry this morning and couldn't even type you a msg, I cried so hard as your post is so touching.  My heart is breaking for you. It sounds like Daisy is comfortable for the moment which is a blessing.  

Janet, I'll be praying that Daisy's last days will be pain free and happy.  

So very sorry :(

  



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by Jade59, Jul 19, 2009
I meant to include what a beautiful girl Daisy is.  Just gorgeous!

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by madtram, Jul 19, 2009
Two precious fur balls in Australia are sending Daisy some long distance healing purrs.     It's wondrous how much peace & pleasure they bring us.  Here's some extra purrs for you too,

Michelle

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 20, 2009
Daisy is starting to show signs that she might be ready and I have so many mixed emotions.  I'm saddened that I'm going to lose this little bundle of happiness!  But, I'm extremely exhausted from the late nights and not being able to sleep because I'm constantly worrying about her.  She is not as comfortable either.  She started to eat less this weekend and this morning she looked the other way when I brought her her food.  I've been using a little chopper to make her food more liquidy so she could get nutrition but she is not interested anymore.  I'm not sure she is drinking either and I have tried pedialyte and she's not interested in that either.  She still comes and lays on me and curls up on my chest and purrs, but even that is not has distinct as it's been.  

I'm afraid the end is very close now and I'm so confused.  I know I need to make sure she does not suffer, but I am so afraid of putting her down before her time.  My heart is breaking and I just don't know how to let her go.  The connection I have with her is so strong.  I can't stand the thought of her suffering - so how do I know for sure when it's time!  She's not showing signs of pain (although I know cats are masters at hiding pain).  

My throat and heart hurt so badly.  The tears keep coming and I just keep asking God to bring her peace and comfort and to help me make the right choice at the right time!  I'm trying to have faith that he will tell me when and that Daisy will tell me too - but what if I'm so distraught over losing her that I put my feelings first!?  OMG!!!  

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by dominosarah, Jul 20, 2009
You have and will always put her well being first.  I used to ask my dad about how do you know when it is time and he always told me you just do......my thoughts are with you and Daisy.......sara

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by zodiacqueen, Jul 20, 2009
Hi, hon.  I agree w/ Sara you will know when the time is right.  Your heart will tell you and so will Daisy.

My heart is with you and many prayers have been going out to you.

Hugs
Z

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by Jade59, Jul 20, 2009
Hi Janet.  I'm thinking the same as Sara and Z.  You will know the right time and since you and Daisy have such a strong connection, I have no doubt she will "tell" you when she's ready.   It doesn't sound like she's in pain. If she were in bad pain she might pant some, you know, but you say she seems comfortable and you should know because I'm sure, like all of us who are close to their animals, you watch every single move she makes.  I think she would give some sign if she were in pain.  It really doesn't sound like it.  

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers and my heart is just breaking for you :(



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by Piparskeggr, Jul 20, 2009
Janet;

Your deep affection for Daisy and the definite bond you have with her will signal your heart to let your head know.

Hopefully the fates will be kind and Daisy will just drift away on dreams of chasing mousies through meadows of sweet smelling grass.  If it's anything like my Queen Victoria,  she'll come and look at you, meow a couple of times and go to her favorite "not on your lap" sleeping spot...saying her farewell and then finding that long, good night.

If you do have to take Daisy to the Vet for the final visit, know that you, and we, know that you did do the best you could for a beloved little companion.

Sometimes we do everything right and it isn't enough, even "Heroic" measures can fail.

I think a little verse I wrote as part of my uncle Micheal's eulogy might be apt, he was more an older brother, being only a few years older than me.

To those you love give words of thanks
When living ears can drink them in
Regretful tears may water weeds
But Kinfolk dead find them no use

In some ways, we can look upon our pets as small Kinfolk of our heart and hearth; we take them in, often soon after birth, we feed them, clean up after them, socialize them, teach them, give them affection...and receive back unquestioning affection and pleasure from seeing them in return.  They demand nothing, but we give.  Truly, we expect nothing back, but get everything they have.

You HAVE thanked Daisy by the care you've given.  I know you'll water the weeds, I didn't take my own advice ,-)

It is a bitter sweet thing, which helps make life more worth the living.

Be well and take care - Pip

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 21, 2009
It looks like it might be time. Daisy has no sparkle in her eyes and doesn't seem to want any attention.  I knew this was coming, but I'm just sitting here crying!  Hubby and I are most likely taking her to the vet in the morning.  She's not in pain that we can tell, but she has no energy, not eating, not drinking and can barely move.  I have prayed that God will let her drift off to sleep and go peacefully.  I'm hopeful that's what will happen, but since she has gotten to this point, we cannot let her go on like this - it's not fair to her.  

Please pray for her and for us.  We are so heartbroken!  

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by MJIthewriter, Jul 21, 2009
I'm sorry to hear this update. I hope everything goes peacefully. I know I would be heartbroken to lose my Waldo.

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 21, 2009
I was just rubbing her ears and looked inside and they are turning yellow.  So, it appears her internal organs are starting to shut down now.  We are definitely taking her in the morning.  

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by SophieShine, Jul 22, 2009
I am sooooooo sorry Janet, words are failing me right now :((((
Please know that you and Miss Daisy are in my prayers.
Love to you both. xoxoxo. sophie.

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by zodiacqueen, Jul 22, 2009
Janet, I am so sorry and will pray to God that He will give you and Tom strength and peace.  Please know that my heart is with the both of you.  

Hugs
ZQ

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by April2, Jul 22, 2009
I'm praying Janet. I pray the Lord will just take her gently into his arms and give you and your husband peace and comfort.
God bless you and Daisy.
*Hugs*
April

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by Piparskeggr, Jul 22, 2009
As I said elsewhere, Godsspeed and Godsbless. - Pip

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by TrudieC, Jul 22, 2009
So sorry to hear.  I look at my furrballs here and my heart breaks for you.  God bless as you make your trip this morning.  May Daisy smile down on you for the rest of your days.

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by Melissa0116, Jul 22, 2009
Janet, I am so sorry that you have to go through this.  My thoughts and prayers are with you always.  God Bless.

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by twehner5, Jul 22, 2009
I came upon this journal late, but as a fellow cat lover, I, too, cry with and for you.  Many, many hugs.  I am so, so sorry.

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