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My Princess is gone

Jul 22, 2009 - 40 comments

Daisy is now running in meadows in heaven.  The vet we have is amazing and was so kind.  She left quickly and we know there were spirits there to take her to heaven.  Thank you so much for all your prayers and love.  It has been overwhelming, the amount of love and kindness.  

I'm supposed to work today, but I don't think I can.  I can't stop crying.  But, I know she is not suffering and it was the right time.  You were all right, we would know when it was time.  

Hugs,
Janet

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by AppleBr, Jul 22, 2009
Daisy in portuguese is Margarida - a kind of flower ... That fits well on heaven meadows. Hugs,take your time

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by opus88, Jul 22, 2009
Janet you have a good cry for her! her struggle is now over and yours begins, certainly you should be home today...ur grieving, no less than if a human friend has just died, take the day for yourself it has been a tough ride...you did your best now say goodbye dear friend.

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 22, 2009
I can't take the day.  I called my boss to let her know I was a mess and she never even said she was sorry or anything.  I told her I didn't think I'd be any good to anyone and all she said was "the whole day?"  She seemed almost stunned that I would even consider that.  I'm sick to my stomach.  So, I guess I'll pull myself together and head to work.  I'm a very emotional person and perhaps some people could work today, but I'm not one of them!!!!

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by April2, Jul 22, 2009
Janet, what you did was the most unselfish thing you could do. She is no longer suffering. It's us who are left behind who suffer when they're gone.
I prayed last night that Jesus would hold Daisy in his arms. You know how you always see pictures of him holding a little lamb? Well, I envisioned him holding Daisy like that. I know how much he cares for his creatures. I pray he will comfort you and your husband now. Give yourself time to grieve. I know how hard it is. Just remember, you did the kindest thing for her. She's in a better place now and doesn't hurt or feel sick anymore. God bless you, Janet. Our hearts are with you.
*Hugs*
April

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by wanting4#1, Jul 22, 2009
I don't know of many people who have pets who could work. Maybe your boss isn't an animal person, but I wouldn't have been able to go in (and didn't when I lost my precious BuBu...I was a mess everytime I saw her picture for weeks. I STILL cry and it's been two years)

God be with you!

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 22, 2009
wanting4#1:  My boss has a cat and has had animals she's had to put down before.  I was surprised by her reaction especially given the fact that I've been working so many extra hours and super busy at work helping another department who is short staffed.  It just makes me sad to have someone respond so coldly.  Thank you for your comment.

God is good and he is helping me, but the tears just keep coming.  

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by Dazon50, Jul 22, 2009
HelpinUtah:

My thoughts are with you as you sorrow over Daisy's passing.  You have some beautiful reminders that I hope will blossom as you continue to share the blessing her presence has been in your life.  


Donna                                                                                                          


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by peaceinknowing, Jul 22, 2009
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by SassyLassie, Jul 22, 2009
I am so sorry to hear about your beloved Daisy. Havea good cry and don't worry about that boss of yours. I know I sure would not be able to work, no way.  Lossing a pet is so hard. I still miss my kitty and doggie. They are a part of your family; The Lord has her now and is loving her and cradleing her in His loving arms  and she is happy with all the other critters.

Hugs and prayers
Susie

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by Beachwalker33, Jul 22, 2009
I'm sorry about Daisy.She's not in any pain anymore,but now you are,I wish I could give you comfort with a hug instead of words.She had a happy life and a wonderful companion in you.Be happy you had the pleasure of her cuddles and purrs.I wish it could have been forever.Take care and I'm glad you took off work,just relax and find comfort wherever you can,relax.God Bless you and let's be envious of Daisy for she's in the most perfect place in the world heaven! I'll pray for the pain in your heart to ease up.Love, from one animal lover to another,Jen

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by allaboutmary, Jul 22, 2009
I'm so sorry about Daisy. I'm sure you gave her the best life any cat could want.

P.S.  I have a few words for your boss and there not pleasant.
Big HUG , Mary

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by Jade59, Jul 22, 2009
I'm so very sorry, Janet.  Of course you don't feel like working today.  How cold of your boss to make you feel guilty!

Losing a pet is so devasting and my heart hurts for you and your loss :(

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by AppleBr, Jul 22, 2009
I didnt know Daisy in life, but I'm sure she had a great time in your company...
There are lots of cats envy of - and maybe in the future some can get the same pleasure;
Sorry for your boss behaviour, it was surprising considering what you said about her.But some people act this way even when we are most sensitive - I do know about !
Cry everytime you wants ,if it makes you feel better. Do it at job - you can say its for the stomach,if necessary!
All the best! Take care!




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by HelpinUtah, Jul 22, 2009
I finally decided to stay home from work.  I called my boss but she was in a meeting and so I emailed her.  I told her that I have been nursing Daisy for a month and that I didn't think I could love her more than I did but that we ended up closer than ever during this time.  I told her I was a mess and that I couldn't work today.  She responded, "Okay, I completely understand!"  So, I guess she just didn't react well this morning and probably did not mean to hurt me.  I'm sure I'm ultra senstive right now anyway!

Thanks for the comforting words.  You have no idea how much you have helped me today!  

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by VicUser, Jul 22, 2009
So sorry to hear about Daisy, it is hard to lose a pet,I know they are really one of the family.

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by Cherie762, Jul 22, 2009
I also am very sorry to hear of your loss Janet, Daisy was a member of the family, take all the time to mourn that you need, be sure to save one of Daisy favorite toys or blanket..etc. it will give you fond memories to see in the future.



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by joal, Jul 22, 2009
I am so sorry. It is hard to say goodbye and let go. Someone gave me this poem when I had to let my Bear go, I hope it helps you...  

               The Rainbow Bridge  
By the edge of a woods, at the foot of a hill,
Is a lush, green meadow where time stands still.
Where the friends of man and woman do run,
When their time on earth is over and done.
For here, between this world and the next,
Is a place where each beloved creature finds rest.
On this golden land, they wait and they play,
Till the Rainbow Bridge they cross over one day.
No more do they suffer, in pain or in sadness,
For here they are whole, their lives filled with gladness.
Their limbs are restored, their health renewed,
Their bodies have healed, with strength imbued.
They romp through the grass, without even a care,
Until one day they start, and sniff at the air.
All ears prick forward, eyes dart front and back,
Then all of a sudden, one breaks from the pack.
For just at that instant, their eyes have met;
Together again, both person and pet.
So they run to each other, these friends from long past,
The time of their parting is over at last.
The sadness they felt while they were apart,
Has turned into joy once more in each heart.
They embrace with a love that will last forever,
And then, side-by-side, they cross over… together.


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by HelpinUtah, Jul 22, 2009
I have read The Rainbow Bridge previously with my two boys who passed in 2004 and 2005.  But, thank you for posting it again - as I read it out loud I cried but thought of Daisy running in those fields and playing with my two boys who went before her.  I can't describe how happy I am that she is no longer suffering with illness.  But, at the same time, that selfish part of me is what misses her. The part that wants her here - not there!  

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by flmagi, Jul 22, 2009
So sorry about your Princess, it's always so heartbreaking to loose a pet.

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by jimi1822, Jul 22, 2009
Oh My GOD, I am soooo sorry for your loss. My wife Lori just found a new apt and is going to be taking two of our cats chochka and yenta and I'm sooooo very sad over it :o( But Lori will take good care of them as she has always been a good mother toward them. and she did say I could visit =0) it's still very hard but I have chiquita and babyguy and that in itself is comforting as my wife Lori bought chiquita for me as a present last year and we adopted babyguy right before we were married.

                                                                                            May GOD welcome Daisy with outreached arms
                                                                                            to hold comfort and care for her =0) :o) =)

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by beatingthis, Jul 22, 2009
Ahh Janet I am soooo sorry. I have lost 2 in the past year.
No words can help I know.

My love to you!

Terry

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by April2, Jul 22, 2009
I understand completely. As you know, I lost Willow just a few months ago. I look at my cat who's only a year younger than Willow was and worry when it will be her time. She's already lost a lot of weight. All I can do is put it in God's hands and enjoy each day that we have.
I'm so glad your boss came around like that! Just take care of yourself right now and take it easy today. God bless.
April

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by 10356, Jul 22, 2009
Native American Prayer

I give you this one thought to keep -
I am with you still - I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the sweet uplifting rush,
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not think of me as gone -
I am with you still in each new dawn.

i'm very sorry for the pain you and your dear hubby feel.. your sweet daisy has only known love and kindness.. She is Love so will never truly be gone.. warm hugs lesa..

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by refusingbondage, Jul 22, 2009
Janet - I am so sorry to hear of your loss.  She was very lucky to have had you .  My prayers and heart is with you.

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by babypooh, Jul 22, 2009
I'm so truly sorry for the loss of your two boys and that of Daisy  now :( Daisy will always love you for everything you did for her. God bless you and your family.

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by Piparskeggr, Jul 22, 2009
Janet,

You know my beliefs are not the same as most folks here, but they are heartfelt.

In my faith, our pets, when they pass on, become part of the guardian spirits who watch over us.  Daisy's ability to do that is so much stronger because of the love and care you gave to her so unselfishly.

Also, I still very much admire Francis of Assisi and like to think that my little companions have been welcomed by him to a safe haven of green grass, clear water, ever full food bowls, mousies who do not mind being chased by kitties and kind human spirit folk who will give them a sritch behind the ear or rub on the belly...every cat a kitten again...every human a child again, when they come to rejoin their little friends.

Godsspeed and Godsbless - Pip

PS:  I was lucky, when Cerridwen Blythe (May) and Queen Victoria Grey (June) passed on in 2000 and Calamity Jane Grey (March) in 2004, my bosses each time told me ahead of time to take a day, knowing how much I cared for the little beasts.  I'm glad your boss seemed to have a change of heart later in the day.

How can such small creatures have such a big hold on your heart?

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by merrymaria, Jul 22, 2009
i m so sorry for your loss....i have been through it many times and i know your heart must be breaking....i truly believe in the rainbow bridge....you will cross together....prayers and hugs to you...maria

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by troubleinohio, Jul 22, 2009
honey I am so sorry for your loss. I so understand where you are at right now. I have lost SO many beloved pets over the years (3 this year alone, too). It never gets easier to take no matter how many you lose.
and Lesa, that is a BEAUTIFUL poem you posted!! I have never seen that before and am going to print that out, I love it!!

xo xo xo xo xo

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by ginger899, Jul 22, 2009
Blessings to your Daisy's spirit. Just after any loved one has passed away is a very sacred time, although a sad day for you. How anyone could try to make you feel guilty for not turning up at work.....!......goodness knows! I wouldn't have dreamed of going.
I am so sorry you lost your girl.

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by dominosarah, Jul 22, 2009
I am so sorry about your loss Janet.....Take the time you need to grieve now.......Soon you will feel Daisy's spirit alive in your home........sara

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by Totsie59, Jul 22, 2009
OMG...I am sooo sorry for your lose...I lost 2 about a 45 days ago...my heart still hurts...I still miss them so much..I am like you...I know they are running free and having a blast in a wonderful place...

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by PerimenoWorried, Jul 23, 2009
Janet, I'm so sorry for your loss.  They are family members.  I've been through many that I've lost and I know what pain there is attached to it.  Just know that you did the right thing and your furbaby is in loving hands, romping around, happily and pain free.  

The one thing that I always do is say, "No more" but, inevitably, there's alway another little one that needs a home, love and attention and eventually, I go on to give that little one a home, love and a place in my heart.  We think that there's only so much room in our hearts and that places can't be filled but, our hearts are endless and that's a fortunate thing because there are so many little ones in this world who need good homes and love.  

In the meantime, know that suffering is over and take your time to heal as we all need to do after a loss that we have loved so much.  



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by April2, Jul 25, 2009
Janet, today I picked up my July/August edition of my Angles Magazine and read this story. I immediately thought of you and thought you might like to read it. I was intrigued and moved at the part where they said the wind chimes that they have always sing when they do a placement (burial) of an animal, whether there's a wind or not. The staff said they like to think it's the animal's soul being welcomed into heaven by the other animals already there. It just gave me chills. Read the story and let me know what you think. Just like Guidepost, Angels Magazine is supposed to be all true stories. I hope you like this story.

www.guideposts.com/story/angels-rest-pet-cemetery?

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 25, 2009
April:
I have heard of that place before - but what a wonderful story especially about the chimes.  Thank you for sharing that with me.  I absolutely believe our pets will be with us again.  I have my own interpretations and I am often afraid to voice my feelings about it for fear I'll be seen as strange.  But, I honestly believe that these little spirits will be our children in heaven.  Of course, that's not something that you can find in scripture or anything, but those have been my feelings for many years.

Thanks everyone for your support!!!!

Hugs,
Janet

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by HelpinUtah, Jul 25, 2009
Here's a link to a memorial for my Daisy:
http://www.rainbowbridge.org/residents.aspx?resid=RB0A5814



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by firstime88, Jul 31, 2009
Janet,
I am so rry for your loss. It makes me feel almost selfish for complaining about what I am going through right now.
My wife and I have raised kittens from birth to grave so many times we have lost count.  We have rescued cats and kittens from 3 of the surrounding states and so many from surrounding towns and communities we have become know all too well amoung those who are trying to find homes for abused and rescued cats.

We have had to have many put down as they were so old and their health had deteriorated to the point there was no hope left or a disease was slowly destroying them and there was no reason to prolong their suffering.  Like Daisy, they too are in a better place.

Even after bottle feeding, raising and caring for so many like we have over the decades, it is still one of the most difficult things we face and that is losing a beloved cat or dog.  For what it's worth we are building (or were about to begin building until I became seriously ill with intestinal problems as of June) a heated and air conditioned detached room for our cats.  (yes we have several and we are in the process of moving into a larger house and don't need all of them in here.)

Oh..another thing.....the place where I work has a car port with shelving and drain pipes and other places to hide kittens so some neighborhood cats are using that car port as kind of a "nursery".  About a week before I became so deathly ill on June 22, I caught one of those kittens.  Stripped calico with a hint of Snowshoe coloring around the nose and feet.  She was not very wild or upset and so we immediately took her to the vet, like we do all our animals, to have her checked for any and all communicable diseases.  We decided her name should be Daisy.  I was unable to help raise Daisy because I was in the hospital for 3 weeks and she was at the vet the whole time.  She is home now, but I don't get to play with the cats b/c I still have an open belly wound and do not wish to chance another infection.  But soon I will be back playing with them and cleaning up cat fur by the ton....LOL

As I write this I fight tears as I think of your Daisy..

Jerry

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by HelpinUtah, Aug 01, 2009
Jerry:

Thank you for sharing your story and for rescuing so many kittens/cats.  That gives me hope for all those sweet pets who are lost, abandoned and afraid.  To know there's someone like you selflessly giving.  Thank you!!!

I'm so sorry to hear about your health and hope and pray you continue to heal and quickly.  My prayers are with you.

Hugs,
Janet

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by firstime88, Aug 01, 2009
Janet,
Thank you so much for the prayers and kind wishes.

Jerry

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by lonewolf07, Aug 01, 2009
HelpinUtah

After losing a pet, I used to read this poem, when I was ready.

(do not stand at my grave and weep)

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.



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by FriscoGirl, Aug 01, 2009
Am so sorry for your loss.  Our thoughts and prayers go out to you.

Although I still feel the loss of my poodle Audrey in 1980 and sheltie Arnie in 1996, I am confident that they are happy now and are waiting for me to join them in due course.

Just like Princess and the two boys before, you will will join at the appropriate time.

Think of the good times.  That is what they want.  They came to comfort us and give us joy.  And hope for our love.  That is what you have given in full measure.

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