May 17, 2008
I have come to the conclusion that I know too much for my own good. When we first miscarried 17 months ago I plunged myself into reasearching it, and I have been doing that ever since. On the positive, I am a much more knowledgable person and have a lot of information to help others. But, the negative is that I now know everything that can go wrong. I know what the warning signs are and what happens in those so-called "normal" pregnancies, so I freak when I dont fit the mold. Recently, I discovered that high beta-hcg levels are a warning sign or Down's Syndrome, so I am freaking about that. I sometimes wish that I hadn't researched like I did, that I didnt know what I do, because I think I would have a lot less worry. I wouldnt over analyze every little thing and compare it to all that I have read, I may just be able to sit back and enjoy bein pregnant, but so far, no success with that.
Does anyone else feel this way?