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A dream about relapsing

May 20, 2008 - 1 comments

Very scary.  Last night I have a dream where I remember rationalizing, using, and then the guilt afterwards.  It was painful to have real feelings about how that would disappoint myself, and indirectly, others. I even thought - 'oh ****, now I should tell the forum.  This sucks."  All within the dream.

However, there are a few bright sides to this situation:  

1) I woke up and I'm still clean (very happy to learn I was only dreaming)

2) It was great to FEEL the disappointment of using - without the consequences.  

3) Appartently, I have no business on a greyhound bus.

Don't forget!

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by malenurse57, May 20, 2008
Amen to the only a dream. I would say it is just good reasoning returning. Never liked the grey dog anyway LOL.
Good luck and God Bless

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