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Detox AGAIN

Jun 24, 2014 - 0 comments
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detox

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drug addiction

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HEROIN

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addicted

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what??

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Living with addiction

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Living with addict

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personal power



Today i took my guy to detox AGAIN. I think I must be the ultimate enabler. I don't say this to gain sympathy....I say this because i'm thinking it is most likely true. I have my own issues and history and have seen counsellors for 30+ yrs off and on. I consider myself relatively healthy....and I am aware of how he and I "fit".....I've tried AA and Alanon....they are not for me. I am also not a christian (both of these are triggers to past abuse for me) ....so....i have a difficult time with all the "god" will help you through all of this" talk. Ultimately i believe we all need to tap into our own personal power to change our lives for the better....I am confused as to why he can't seem to find it within himself or see the affect of his actions.....
He and I have gone to counselling as well....when we communicate we do with great ease...
Maybe this is why i continue to keep this going....cause we "fit" and we communicate.....as much as there is bad there is also some good....there it is....insecure with what i am doing is the right thing......is it  better to end?? am i just prolonging the inevitable??

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