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Jul 01, 2014 - 33 comments

Today is July 1 2014. AND I have a Not-So-Good-Heart!!
I had not been feeling to good and I am around 2 months shy of 2 years. I knew it would take me this long to balance out up stairs in the Brain, so I excepted this. I also had those Hot-Flashes and Bad Sweats cycle back around after all these Years. So I see a Dr who specializes in HRT in a Natural way Monday.  However, I was not sure WHY I was having shortness of Breath and Pain in the middle of my Chest.

I took a friend to see the Dr today at the same building my Dr is at. As I was there I got scared of the way I was feeling and asked if my Dr was in, well he was not!  I told them what was up and they threw me in a room with a Dr and hooked me up to the EKG. OK..Now I have to go to the Hospital for some more intense test, and one being the treadmill hooked up to the Ego-Gram..(if I said this right). This is ALL I need right now..I think I have had my share of Pain/Hurt for the Past
I know it is my own fault for taking these drugs that always got me SO wired up..Those pumped my Heart Hard. Then when I came clean off those 3 meds, this pumped my Heart so hard and for so long, that I thought I was going to have a Heart Attack. Then I had lost most of my Family in those 3 months, that just Broke my Heart.
NOW..The Biggest right now is my Smoking Cigs. I did not even start smoking until my late 30s. I do not smoke that much now due to not being so wired up all the time. The Cigs have to GO or I will DIE! Just like our drugs/booze that will soon destroy us. I know I can Eat right & take some good vit/min to help with my healing, but I still am so scared of what damage I might have already done..Maybe it is not going to be that bad. I just know NOW that I have to do YET some more Changes regarding my Life Style..Changes, Changes and more Changes seems to be all I have been doing for the best..I just Pray to God that everything will be just fine..It is NOT my time to go yet!
SO..I sure could use some Prayers right now and so can my Hub..This has got him really scared.
We have just lost to many this Year & Last that his heart could not take any more Bad news either.
Please Pray for this Ol Heart to
Bless U ALL

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by ROSYouralright, Jul 01, 2014
I'm so sorry to hear this Vic and my prayers are with you.

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by VICourageous, Jul 01, 2014
Rosy!!!! You are ALRIGHT!! I have missed YOU so much my Dear..How are things going for YOU??lol

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by msdelight, Jul 01, 2014
Vic all prayers out for good things. When do you go for the stress test? Are you there now?

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by toothfairie, Jul 01, 2014
Praying for you Vic!!  everything will be fine!!  keep us updated on everything!  

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by nonights, Jul 01, 2014
Vic oraying for good health and good test!

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by ricart70, Jul 01, 2014
Hey Vic I am with you and you CAN quit smoking. I think you will be fine through this. A stress test is a good thing and will show you where you are at with your overall health. Try not to be worried ok friend ;)   caffeine is also not a good thing when we are wound up. Hang in there ok ;)

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by EvolverU, Jul 01, 2014
VIC -- I wish that I was sitting face-to-face with you right now. I really do.

First I'd give you a big long hug & try to get you to laugh, smile & breath out the stress a little. Second, I'd beg you not to blame your use/yourself for what's happening right now. You've been through Hell this past year or so (& I'm not even talking about the rough detox!) & you've been just incredible, throughout. Even the strongest, most beautiful hearts need a rest sometimes though! I think it's more than likely that the onslaught of loss, anxiety & grief that you're trying to digest might have something to do with what you're experiencing. Believe it or not, this is not an uncommon phenomenon -- that people who are overloaded with heartbreak actually experience some form of difficulty with their physical hearts. (Have you ever noticed that when you're terribly sad or tied up emotionally that you experience it as a tightness/constriction in your chest & lungs? Well, I have!) Please, my dear friend, try not to panic -- remember how much you've overcome. You're going to get through this. You are very resilient in heart, mind & body. In fact, this might just be the warning that gets you to quit the cigs & make sure to start finding anti-stress exercises to curb that terrible anxiety & help you through all this.

You've got my prayers. I'll be carrying you with me in heart & mind. :)


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by jugglin, Jul 01, 2014
I echo all of your amazing responses above.  Try to breathe and know that it is a good thing to know where you are at physically thru the tests.  We all know we need to quit are not alone.  
Saying prayers for strength, peace, comfort and good health!  Hold strong dear lady!

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by VICourageous, Jul 01, 2014
THANK YOU!! He said it could be a Block Too! I am waiting for them to call back and schedule me..I HATE My Blood to be Draw too..No one can do it
Thank You again for the Prayers. ALL of YOU are just the BEST!!! lol

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by ariley13, Jul 01, 2014
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers Vic. Please try to stay as calm as possible. I know it's hard to do, but no sense  inviting problems and trouble. Please let us know what the stress test shows, ok? Love you.

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by Sonrissa, Jul 01, 2014
You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Try to stay positive, I know that is so hard. I get the smoking thing, I really do. SIGH! Take care, Sweetie!

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by jimi1822, Jul 01, 2014
Victoria, I wil light a Candle of Spevial intent with some heart felt Prayers for your Health and Wellness I just know everything will be AlRight 0:)

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by AShellof_Me, Jul 01, 2014
I'm at a stop light... Haven't read everything... But girl... I'm in prayer right now!!

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by jimi1822, Jul 01, 2014
Special Intent

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by msdelight, Jul 01, 2014
You have so many angels looking out for you in heaven and on earth that there is nothing to fear. I bet one of them will be the one to draw your blood.  I 100% agree with Annie about the stress, and of course, all the other angels who posted.  Take slow deep breaths and repeat in your mind All is or any other soothing chant. Mine was Everything gonna be alright, set to reggae music in my head! You laughing yet? Don't make me get my pom poms!

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by onthefence, Jul 01, 2014
Sending positive thoughts your way, i know it can be hard , but try to think positive thoughts pls. it is alot healthier , less stress is good :). you have come a long ways , i bet you can stop cigs to if that is what you desire.pls. try not to get ahead of everything in your thinking, thinking of you

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by Godisfaithful, Jul 01, 2014
Isaiah 53:5; But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon Him; and with His stripes we ARE healed.

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by clean_in_ks, Jul 01, 2014
Hey Vic,
There's this saying (dang me and my that comes to mind:  "Don't trouble trouble till trouble troubles you".

I, too, was a few months shy of my 2 yr clean date when I had chest pains and shortness of breath.  As it turned out, I have a very healthy heart and it was due to some other issues I had going on.  It may very well be something "explainable" and not be a blockage or a sign you have damaged your heart during your using years.  

Are you having the EKG/Treadmill test?......or the Nuclear Treadmill test?  My hubby and I have both had the nuclear test done as we were told it is much more accurate.  

I'm SO glad you found a ND that you are seeing on Monday....those possibly wacky hormone levels as well as what you have lived through these past months can play havoc with your entire body/mind/emotions for sure.

I hope you and your hub will keep believing....keep the faith......just do the next right thing......and trust that it will all turn out all right.  You've got plenty of supporters out here....we are all holding you close....lifting you up....and praying for you.

Find some tunes that calm you.....everytime you find yourself "worrying" and feeding your"don't trouble trouble till trouble troubles you"..LOL

LOTS of songs out there with lyrics about things being "All Right" 'em, ok?....listen to ALL of 'em....LOL  Better than worrying, huh?

Here's just a clip from two of them:  

"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin':  Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"
(Bob Marley)

"Don't you worry about a thing
Don't you worry about a thing, mama"
'Cause I'll be standing in the wings
When ou check it out."
(Stevie Wonder)

Kathy Troccoli and Amy Grant both have songs titled "ALL RIGHT", too.  


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by jimi1822, Jul 01, 2014
Victoria look at all the MH Angels who Love  and Care about you because you are very Special to so many people here on MH. Vicky even if it is a blockage the Good team at the Hospital wil put a Stent in and you will be as good as new with about a three day Recovery. Health, Wellness and peace my Friend and Sister <3 jimi (little wing =0)

                                                     "Do. Not be Concerned about tomorrow. . . . .
                                                      Today's Concerns is enough for today."

                                                                                                                          Matthew 6:34

                                                                                                                ~ Jesus the Christ of Nazareth

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by atthebeach, Jul 01, 2014
Isaiah 41:10King James Version (KJV)

10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Praying for you Vic. Sending hope, trust, faith, joy and peace.
Much love and hugs.

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by meegWpaw, Jul 01, 2014
my thoughts are with you Vickie and you know I wuv you very much ... your Meg-Pie  xoxo  <3

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by 10356, Jul 02, 2014
Oh V, I'm so sorry to read this.. I will be sending prayer's for your health.. I can say that when I have a Great emotional upset it effects me physically I Believe when I lost Sammy that was when my kidney began to fail. You have had so much grief in such a short time. I also will be praying for peace and serenity for you and hubby both.. warmly, lesa

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by dominosarah, Jul 02, 2014
You are in good hands and will find out what is going on.  Try and keep yourself calm and dont let that brain of yours play anymore games than it already has.  We are all here for you Vicki~

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by lulu747, Jul 02, 2014

Just want to send you some love and support and reiterate what others have said above- don't panic- could be your hormones/stress/etc.
I agree the cigs have to go though.  They were the hardest for me.  But I did it.  And so can you.  My boyfriend was a hardcore smoker (2 packs a day) and 3 months ago he switched to an E-cig.  Still gets the nicotine but not all the other garbage that they put in them, tar, not to mention all the chemicals.  He feels great!  His asthma is finally under control and he has much more energy than ever before.  It's a crutch, for awhile, because yes the nicotine is still there.  But it's not doing the damage that cigarettes do- so think about it as an option.
Sending big hugs and love.  Take deep breaths.  And remember- Don't panic.  Worry and upset wreak the worst havoc on our health.

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by selfinduced, Jul 02, 2014
Prayer's, prayer's and more prayer's……..Your going to be ok. I just feel it. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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by VICourageous, Jul 02, 2014
Thank You!

OK,OK, OK..NO I am not stressed or having any anxiety or over thinking anything, I am doing the opposite and remaining Low key and very Mellow. The DR did not like how the EKG read..This is what worried him and I will be going in the Morning. If anything I get a bit frustrated because when I get up and do some chores/work then after a while that sharp deep pain comes in the middle of me chest. I even asked him about it being some kind of Acid-Reflux. I really am leaning toward that more. BUT it was still the reading of the EKG that is telling us something..SO I will just stay Low until I find out more. I know whatever it is I will find out and try to take care of it in a more natural way..I do not Trust many Drs these days nor the Meds they like to push. BUT I will do what I must do. I know I do not need anything for pain, but I might have to take something for cholesterol or find a natural way, which I already know something about and one thing is Low or No Sodium..Diet will play a big role as I went back to eating way better(again) then I did during my detox.

Thank You ALL again for the Support!
I will be back after I find out and let you know..
I bet we all get a BIG Laugh when all I needed to do was Burp & Fart..lmao

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by VICourageous, Jul 02, 2014
PS..Jade thank you for the note..That made some since too!
Thanks too CIK for the wonderful PM.
I love you all!!!

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by clean_in_ks, Jul 02, 2014
"Burp and Fart".....ROFL.......LOLOLOLOL

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by starshine7, Jul 02, 2014
Reading this **cking late lol sorry but I wanted to say I'm thinking of are so kind and won't stop! :)

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by meegWpaw, Jul 03, 2014
hey Vickie doll, ive been thinking about you all day, just wanted to check see how your doing ... Bad Company came on the radio today and I listened to the WHOLE SONG for you, baby!   hope your doing great Vickie I wuv you! ... Meg Pie

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by VICourageous, Jul 04, 2014
Hi Everyone!
Still laying Low. I have to have that Nuclear Ego-Cardiac Test on the 22nd..OK, well then if it is a couple of weeks away then it must NOT be as serious. Ha! BUT they did say that was the only opening they had asap. They said if I have some BAD ash pain to hit the ER here in town for they are already aware of my up coming appointment. I just think it SO strange. I feel like it is more above the diaphragm or right smack below the Breast. I am taking some stuff for the acid..It is only when I get up and start to do some work is when the pain in the middle comes in and makes it hard to breath..WTHeck!!! I just do not know but I am no DR..hahaha  I am going to go and do some research on this area (Diaphragm). I think it is all connected to what is going on. My Insurance will not kick in until the 10th month which will be Oct-14. I would like to wait, but he said that was not a good idea since he read the EKG..Oh well I am a
Meanwhile I will sit here and keep taking DEEP BREATHS and Try not to worry!!!
Thank you all my Angles for your Support & Prayers as usual you all are the best!!!

PS..CIK I am getting that test that you recommended. They just told me what I was getting, and I would of not known the difference if you did not say

Have a GREAT 4TH OF JULY....KEEP YOUR PETS SAFE!! I have to give mine a calm-me-downer all natural from the vets..Only becasue they shoot Guns out here. No fireworks because of the forest, but they have the fireworks on the Lake in town. I still can see a bit from here..(Hugs)
Bless U ALL & BE SAFE!!!!

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by clean_in_ks, Jul 04, 2014
Well isn't this just "bomb diggity" news?????  LOL

I'm sorry you're still hurting, Vic....but SO HAPPY to hear they are doing the echo/nuclear test!!!  YeaH!!!!
Both my dr and my hub's doctor said there can be too many "Misread" or "inaccurate" readings on the non-nuclear test.
And believe me....our two primary care dr's are WAY different...haha!  So that's music to my ears!!  I'm so glad you have one scheduled.  That's only a little over 2 weeks away.  Good deal~
If you can help others with your can help yourself with THIS, right?  Your heart and current condition is MORE IMPORTANT than ANYTHING, imo!!!  Hopefully, they offered you some assistance and relief financially at your visit yesterday with the "intake" people.  It is a VERY expensive test....yet one of GREAT assurance.

We're just gonna take a country drive after dark....park the truck/car and watch the festivities in the sky!!!

Hope you are feeling your FREEDOM today, Vic!  You have come SO FAR and are doing wonderful.  Hope you'll let me know how your visit with the ND goes on Monday.  Takin care of business...aren'tcha girl???  

Love you gobs~

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by VICourageous, Jul 04, 2014
WOW!! I just found some great info about the Heart in ALL of us. He was talking about the good and bad Cholesterol and said you must make sure you have it checked for being A or B..If it is A then some of the Bad Cholesterol will be fine..If it is B then this is no good. He also talked about many ways of knowing if it is the heart. Then he went into the way we eat..YA! I used to eat nothing but lean meats and fresh veg & fruits and complex Carbs..NO SUGAR OR FAT!! Also avoided process foods and sodium. Like the book I have already, he said the same things..This will help lower blood pressure, cholesterol, triglycerides(not sure if I spelled that right but it is the Fat cells),inflammation, diabetes, arthritis, hormone unbalance, weight,and keep your Arteries from building up. NOW this is the way I used to eat and I was in good shape and had a nice figure & energy. Since I came clean in 2012 I was eating very bad because I was to sick to cook right. Now I am back on track so I KNOW I will be fine. Just EAT right, exercise and be happy and stay away from cigs, booze and drugs and we all should be good to go..
Thanks for listening. Check this Dr out if you can find him..He wants you to buy his info but if you can just watch the video it will make so much
Dr. Chauncey Crandall
Here are some vit he suggest that he made in one, but I do have most of these.

Plant Sterol Esters
Niacin + Key "B" vit
Vit C
Please make sure you keep a Healthy Heart because they call it the "Silent Killer" and it is good to have it checked after 50 for sure. We live in a country that the food is not to good for our
God Bless America Anyway. lol

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