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wtf is wit these cravings

Jul 05, 2014 - 0 comments

i thought cravings came and went why are mine here a lot in my brain a constant fight with myself for hours and hours my addict brain is wearing me down but I'm still stronger as of this minuet my shoulder is doing that thing again where it hurst so bad i can't move it only hold it close to my body its awful and motrin doesn't help at all and i gotta work its horrible just horrible that last time this happened i was using and had to work and went o cl and got some pills i pray i don't do that today PRAY my *** off it ***** really ***** i don't wanna relapse but i wanna get high soooooo bad i hate it i hate it i hate it I'm going to a meeting today can't wait so need it and can't wait to get to rhode island on monday just gotta get away and have absolutely no desire to take any pills with me like before thank god how can i want them so bad yesterday and today and not want them next week idk this whole thing is just really effin with me hope this to soon shall pass

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