May 22, 2008
Waiting is the hardest part!!
After not really "trying" and not really "avoiding" it this month, I am now in my TWW. We planned on trying next month for sure, but figured we'd just let it happen naturally this month if that was God's plan.
Well, since I didn't use an OPK, I have no idea of the exact day that I ovulated...although I feel certain it was Friday evening (the 16th). We only did the nasty twice last week. Once early in the week and once on the 17th.
Now it's just a game of sit and wait...and the only way I know how to play that game is to analyze every little bodily function and feeling until I either get a BFN or a BFP.
I had cramping in my right ovary and lower abdomen a few days ago, and since then I've been having either a dull ache or periodic cramping on and off. Then there's the fact that the past two nights I had to get up and pee twice during the night, where I usually only pee once, if THAT.
Funny how our minds tend to work during this agonizing wait. But the way I look at it is that it gives us a chance to dream and fantasize, and think "what if?".
Yeah, the BFN can come along and knock that dream into oblivion...but hey, there's always next month, right?