May 23, 2008
I can't even express how tired I am today as the baby got very little sleep which has happened that past few days. Tonight was awful as we couldn't get him comfortable. We ended up swaddling him in this ginormous blanket and walked, walked and walked him until my back felt broken.
I also learned today that dh has to go out of town for a few days then end of this month/first of June. I'll virtually have no help as the girls are also out of town & so are grandparents. I feel like a big baby as I don't want him to go, yet, I don't want to stand in his way in a professional sense. It's for a great reason that he's going - it's just that I'm afraid I won't be able to handle Noah on my own especially after a day like today. It seems that sometimes I only need a small break occasionally and then I'm back as good as new. We didn't hire a person to help like we were suppose to - the one I did hire fell through. More than anything, I don't want to be like my sister who won't let her dh go anywhere since her baby was born and she automatically assumes that I'll be the same way.
That's another journal entry...........I'm off to bed now that the baby's asleep (for once, ha, ha!)