Aug 05, 2014
I've taken a break from journaling. Mainly because I was repeating myself. Which I'll probably continue here.
Summer is almost over. Its been an interesting one. Ha! Lots if growing for me. Lots of wheels spinning too. I'm house sitting for my brother right now which is nice. Its like having my own place. He has a drum kit which way back in the day we would all try and be musical. Hah. It was fun though. So for old times sake I banged on the drums a bit. Really really really missing my guitar. Its still at the pawn shop and I have till the 27th of this month to get it back. It seems every time I get the money to get it I have to pay some other bill. Whatever at this point.
I guess I'm still seeing this girl. Its fun hanging out with her but there are some red flags popping up now. Probably the biggest and most obvious one is me and my situation. I'm still technically married! Also I guess this is a rebound type of relationship. I've never experienced before so I guess that's what it is? Idk. We have fun I'm extremely comfortable around her and she feels the same. But there's always this odd push back I get from her from time to time. Maybe fear. Maybe just her.
Reality is I really shouldn't be putting myself in this situation or her in this situation either.
Overall things are going great. Just trying to find a full time job and working on getting my future together.
60+ days clean going strong!