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Aug 05, 2014 - 6 comments

I've taken a break from journaling. Mainly because I was repeating myself. Which I'll probably continue here.

Summer is almost over. Its been an interesting one. Ha!  Lots if growing for me. Lots of wheels spinning too. I'm house sitting for my brother right now which is nice. Its like having my own place. He has a drum kit which way back in the day we would all try and be musical. Hah. It was fun though. So for old times sake I banged on the drums a bit. Really really really missing my guitar. Its still at the pawn shop and I have till the 27th of this month to get it back. It seems every time I get the money to get it I have to pay some other bill. Whatever at this point.

I guess I'm still seeing this girl. Its fun hanging out with her but there are some red flags popping up now. Probably the biggest and most obvious one is me and my situation. I'm still technically married!  Also I guess this is a rebound type of relationship. I've never experienced before so I guess that's what it is?  Idk. We have fun I'm extremely comfortable around her and she feels the same. But there's always this odd push back I get from her from time to time. Maybe fear. Maybe just her.

Reality is I really shouldn't be putting myself in this situation or her in this situation either.

Overall things are going great. Just trying to find a full time job and working on getting my future together.

60+ days clean going strong!

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by EvolverU, Aug 05, 2014
Nice to see you back & good to hear that you're doing well!

Yeah, be careful of rebound relationships & red flags. (Go w/ your gut ;)

Can you just pay some of the pawn off so that the amt. isn't as high or do you have to redeem it all @ once? It s*cks loosing instruments [I know!] Missing them can be like a physical pain that you don't have them in your hands. Glad to hear that you're having fun at your brothers (& I would be all over that drum kit banging away too as horrible of a drummer as I am! ;)

Congrats on your clean time! Are you still going to meetings?

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by EvolverU, Aug 05, 2014
Sorry! Should read 'losing' not 'loosing' instruments :))

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by Pjtwenty, Aug 05, 2014
Yes still going to meetings though not as often because of my work schedule and kids. I'm able to go to about three a week.

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by dominosarah, Aug 05, 2014
Congrats on 60 days!!

The "girl" thing worries me................

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by PorVida, Aug 07, 2014
Great job on 60 days. Be careful with the girl. This is time to work on yourself don't complicate it with outside things that can throw you off your recovery.  

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by Heather8448, Aug 15, 2014
becareful backing off meetings and just dont get high no matter what! Hope u are well my friend

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