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Aug 13, 2014 - 6 comments

Self-hatred and Pain has consumed me all my life
Tried anything to eliviate the pain
Came upon this "magic", that you can't know til your there
I was Superman, but looks are deceiving

Fix after fix until there's no feeling but the next slow death
Comatose and memory gone
Got my wish, but before long; I lost myself.

One magical day...suicidal pictures began swirling my way and I woke up...

It isn't as easy as it appears, you lose all your fears
but what price glory?Every inch of your pride and self
My daughter, my joy of music, of breathing.

Rock bottom is all I can say
I wish everyone could see the way
This "ecstacy" consumes you...eats you alive...your dead inside.

Kurt lost the war..but your a symbol no one should ignore.
You fought; you make me remember each day
Don't throw it all away.on

Sometimes are good, sometimes are bad
It's all a part of life...

I feel the warriors and I will be one the rest of my life..don't ever again think twice.

So bye "Rainbow"..I choose Life.

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by Bubulous, Aug 13, 2014
Really nice Karen.  It feels good to get those emotions down and you have a talent.

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by starshine7, Aug 13, 2014
Ty man! Yeah it was cathartic at 1am I tell ya! But, once you get the urge, you gotta put it down! I love it...I had forgotten how much I enjoyed writing, however weak...sure it's a one hit wonder now, but...I appreciate your opinion...Don't hold back with criticism man!! lol

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by real_jimmy, Aug 15, 2014
its very good :)

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by Dalubaba, Aug 15, 2014
Yes we need triggers to flare up our enthusiasm for self improvement and continue to grow. Metaphysics. yoga, meditation, and positive affirmations are the ways to live  lively life.

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by meegWpaw, Aug 17, 2014
I really like this.

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by Dalubaba, Sep 23, 2014
I reread Rainbow
What is the meaning of Rainbow
Is it the bow or rain?
Does it shoots arrow for rainfall.
Or does it show all facets of life?
Yes resides in everyone's mind.
To represent ups and downs of life.

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