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Remember the girl I was gonna adopt....Theres more to story...

Aug 30, 2009 - 7 comments
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Okay remember this story about my cousin that has issues    "read below"   !!!!!!!   I JUST FOUND OUT SHE IS PREGNANT AGAIN!!!!!!!   LORD HOLD MY MULE........I HAVE MY FAITH AND I AM WAITING ON THE LORD TO BLESS ME WITH A BABY.................I JUST DONT GET HOW HER BUTT ALREADY HAVE 4 KIDS THAT SHE THREW AWAY AND ALL ARE NORMAL WITH NOOOOOOOO HEALTH ISSUES AND WAS ON DRUGS "BAD DRUGS" WITH ALL OF THEM......(LITTLE OLE ME AND HUBBY WANT TO BE PARENTS AND I HAVE ONE TUBE THAT GOD IS REPAIRING AND WE HAVE A 3BEDROOM HOUSE, FENCED IN YARD, GOOD JOBS, EDUCATION, NEVER DID DRUGS.....AND SHE GETS TO KEEEEEEEEEP HAVING CHILDREN)    okay I  am not mad I just had to vent!!

ps we are only 6months apart we both are 26 this year and we were raised together and was close until the drugs...................but same age different living styles...and she has 4 beautiful children and here comes number 5......I think ima adopt this one though.....maybe this is what God has 4 me a newborn!! I just pray that this one is healthy as well despite their stupid mom!!

Okay my cousin that is 26yrs old has 4children......She has been in and out of prison and on drugs and keeps having babies that she cannot afford.....I was gonna get her oldest girl from her about 3yrs ago but she so called straightened up and I didnt bother....All of a sudden this weekend she calls CPS and tells them that she doesnt want her kids anymore and that she doesnt want any of the family to have them.  I was so heart broken..2 kids belong to one dad and 2 kids belong to another one.  So the oldest two kids are 5 and 7 and the youngest are 3 and 2.  The oldest 2 are with my uncle (thier grandpa)  which he is not physically able to support both of them and the youngest 2 are with thier dad's side of the family and their dad's mama (thier grandmother) is taking care of them since the dad is on drugs too....................  So now My husband and I have only been married for 1month now and I mean we have the means to take care of one but not more than that.....We have good jobs, 3bedroom house and a large fenced in front/back yard for her to play in...but my concern is ...am I ready to give up my freedom to make sure at least one of the kids arent in the generational curse of drugs and prison and have a healthy loving life.........I find myself being very selfish......because I have a year and a half left of skool and hubby and I dont have anykids.........but at the same time.......I use to pray for children and I used to pray that I got custody of the oldest...now that my prayer was answered..Medhelp what do I do.....................I want to do what God wants me to do ............And Im not sure if I should get her and raise her or should I just pick her up everynow and then and spend a lil time with her............When my DH heared about this his first reaction was ........"baby do you want to get her" and I was kinda shock at how fast he asked me if I wanted to get her.........so We are just boggled............ps my mama and I are gonna take her shopping on Sunday to get all her skool clothes.......I need all the opinions and all the prayer I can get!!!!!!!!


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784382 tn?1376931040
by turkee23, Aug 31, 2009
wow !!... you know i have been following most of your post about this and your other ones with speaking of the lord and i just cant believe the first line of this said she was PREGO!!!... WOW!!!...... you need to do whats in your heart, if you take that baby im sure he/she will have all the love it deserves from you and your hubby, but be ready to lose the relationship with your cousin. the lord is giving her these babies trying to get her to clean up her life, she just isnt getting the message. and the babies are the ones that suffer ..... do what you feel right, and that you think god is telling you to do. im my opinion she is selfish in having babies she cant or dont want to take care of. it weird how it works that way , when you really truly want one, you cant get prego, but when you dont want them you have multiples..... sad soemtimes.... god bless you... talk to god he will give you the right answers

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by LIL_LADY24, Aug 31, 2009
Turkee23----- Girl yes preggo again.......I just put it in Gods hands and if he wants me to be part of anything then he wil make it possible................my cousin wont be mad at me to raise her baby she just might be happy lol but our relationship was already over once she got on drugs..that is not my type of party and I normally would see her when I brought clothes and toys over for her kids but other than that I have no communication with her...I just find out stuff through the family..... Thanks so much for your prayers and support!!!!!!!!!

582963 tn?1483452520
by LIL_LADY24, Aug 31, 2009
I just dont understand my cousin.........she is trying to kill herself with medication........ps remember she is pregnant.........grrrrrrrrrrr

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by newbie18, Sep 01, 2009
Girl, you really have to pray about the situation. Sometimes we think that certain things are the best for us when it is only really because it is something we want. In this situation you really need to seek Gods guidance. He will direct you cuase eventually all things are revealed. I really hope the best comes out of this situation. I know how you feel

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by LIL_LADY24, Sep 01, 2009
Awwww Newbie18 thanks I really appreciate all the guidance....even with my prayers and my thoughts I still need to be hit with reality and with a lil kick of  good guidance....I am praying everyday because I am being involved with all these babies and children and I think its a sign from God to adopt them but then again it may be a test or even the devil picking at me........But like you said I really need to seek God's guidance and wait on him.......I feel like I am getting picked at like I have to wait on a baby and all these innocent children are getting tossed at me..........I dont know but thanks so much for your comment!!

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by swampcritter, Sep 01, 2009
"LORD HOLD MY MULE"

Swampy enjoys this phrase so much he intends to start using it in casual conversation.

582963 tn?1483452520
by LIL_LADY24, Sep 01, 2009
LOL swampcritter............Be my guest....its been a phrase that has been handed down from trial to trial that has been fought...lol

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