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Life is so ironic!!!

Sep 02, 2009 - 0 comments








Well I feel like I've just been slapped in the face yet again.  I had a horrible August. Not only did AF arrive early no thanks to my ovidrel shot, but my husband informed my that his sister is pregnant with baby #6.  Now I should be happy for my in-laws.  That would be the right thing to do.  I'm not.  Not yet at least.  You see my sister and brother in-law wanted to stop after baby #4.  My brother in-law got a fixed and 2 years ago they found out they were having a baby.  It happened around the time that I started going to a fertility specialist.  Okay I was upset then, I mean they didn't want to have anymore children and bam they're pregnant.  I got over the feeling of humiliation since here I am trying to have children, and can't.  They don't want to and do.  What is wrong with this picture.  So not only did the the operation my brother received not work 100%.  He didn't get a follow-up to make sure everything actually healed like it was suppose to.  Which brings us to today. My sister is 3 months now and is due in February next year.  It's just now fair.  They are barely making ends meet with the mouths they have to feed and now they're adding another one to the mix.  The irony of this whole situation is definetaly not going unnoticed.  I haven't spoken to them about it nor have I mentioned anything to my husband's parents about it.  I think they're trying to respect my sensitivity in this and not wanting to point out the elepant in the room.  Only time will tell when I'll want to speak to anyone of them.  For now I'm just keeping my misery to myself.

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