Sep 04, 2014
I can't go back to my old study habits, but at the same time I cant stay with my current study habits. I need to do more work, and change, but if I do im afraid ill work to hard. I cant find a balance, I just cant. I try, I mean its all worked out in my head, but it isn't followed by actions. I cant even have naps, because once I have a "nap" an hour goes by before I actually feel a little more capable of getting up. I'm really sick of being tired. I just want to sleep for a week, and ill probably be good. But I cant do that. because I have damn school. Do I even deserve it? i also cant sleep for two or tree days over the holidays because i have to do work. Dammit, there is so much going wrong in my head with school and everything. Yeah i know, a lot of people think im complaining about nothing...
To be completely honest, i hate it how people complain they are tired constantly, and they are strictly told to go to bed and sleep for a good 8 or 9 hours... and here i am getting a max of 6 hours every night, sometimes even 3 hours a night, and i don't complain. Until today of course. I don't go around saying "im so tired" every five minutes.
I sound like i am throwing myself a pity party here... I don't mean to, but its a fair point im making.
Just let me sleep, and have no homework t worry about, have nothing to awake me from my beautiful relaxing dreams.
I don't know if i see this getting better at all to be completely honest. I. just. cant. do. it.