I have lost 70 pounds, including that which I lost before I started the weight tracker. This is due to lifestyle changes I took. But my kidney function test results are abnormal. I have been advised to disc. three meds. I did this. However, I also stopped my medication for Bipolar, and for OCD. Therefore, I am taking no psych. meds. On the surface life is OK but inside me, I feel prepared to die. I don't feel I have anything to live for anymore. My blood pressure is ideal. No problems there. I feel normal physically, except for kidney pain. But if I were told I had a terminal illness I would refuse any treatment and expense and just let my life come to its conclusion. I don't care anymore. Husb. refuses counseling. Believes it is of no benifit to anybody. Doesn't believe in it.