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Mood 9-15-09

Sep 15, 2009 - 0 comments

I have lost 70 pounds, including that which I lost before I started the weight tracker.  This is due to lifestyle changes I took.  But my kidney function test results are abnormal.  I have been advised to disc. three meds.  I did this.  However, I also stopped my medication for Bipolar, and for OCD.  Therefore, I am taking no psych. meds.  On the surface life is OK but inside me, I feel prepared to die.  I don't feel I have anything to live for anymore.  My blood pressure is ideal.  No problems there.  I feel normal physically, except for kidney pain.  But if I were told I had a terminal illness I would refuse any treatment and expense and just let my life come to its conclusion.  I don't care anymore.  Husb. refuses counseling.  Believes it is of no benifit to anybody.  Doesn't believe in it.

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