Oct 09, 2014
It is 4 am and I can't sleep. I slept for a few hours earlier, but I am still exhausted and yet I can't turn off my brain. That's part of the GAD. I wish I could just shut it off, all the worry and sadness, all the need to plan ahead. I keep thinking, always thinking. I watched a Transgender documentary earlier, it was amazing. I cried the entire time, unable to turn it off. It's annoying, all the crying. Ya it was an emotional documentary but it was as if I was feeling the pain of all the people in it. I am going to try to sleep now, let's see what happens. Oh, a good note. Chris lost the keys today and he was freaking out. I didn't freak out, in fact I was trying to get him to relax. I am very proud of myself. On another note, still not wanting sex. I can tell it bothers Chris. I love him, I want to give him that intimacy, I just can't force myself to do something that my body doesn't want.