Oct 15, 2014
The only way I reached to the point of taking a more responsible attitude has been as a result of a recent boost within my mental state. This arose from going on holiday for the first time in ages and ages! The actual holiday itself led to a complete change in both my life style, and my usual emotional being was particularly challenged. I felt 'cornered' to behave in a false dishonest happy, smiling and calm way. This actually worked in a most unpredictable way! Fake positivity produced a real, a most real positivity at the time, which was a real learning curve for me.
Sadly on my return I did struggle with what I had emotionally suppressed -this 'push back' of so to speak 'incorrect behavior, thought and emotion left me with what I can only call 'excess energy'. An uncomfortable 'mania' episode surfaced after years of being totally clear of that type of madness. Only, I worked hard and was able to direct my energies towards some of the positive changes of life style I'd learned to fake. So I've learned that a bit of fake can make for positive change.
I've always been one to say never to be dishonest with the way you feel, however, I can now understand 'therapies' that teach you 'alien' to your usual thoughts and ways are not to be pushed aside. Have a go! The mind is such a powerful tool (I've learned far to late!).
Hope this helps somebody.