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Oct 09, 2009 - 0 comments

I have been doing a lot of sleeping as my Dr. told me to do. My IM Dr. prescribed me a new medication for my IBS from the stress I have been under the past couple of months. the medication is Dicyclomine HCL 10mg.  I have to take it 4 times a day it makes me groggy. So that is why I have not been on MH much. Now I am giving all of you an update.

One of my dear friends is helping see how I am dealing with the Fibro. and all the syndromes as well my severe depression as all of you are aware of that I have. So my friend lets me know that I have to fight the Fibro. I know I need to do this. What I am having difficulty with is all the changes we have had to make. Now in order for me to have a ramp for my scooter and walker I need a ramp. In order to do this I have get rid of a lot plants and furniture in our garden and this is my favorite part of the garden. I am sad about this. my friend and hubby have talked to me and said this needs to ge done so I can have some freedom and be safe. I have come to terms with this. But I can't promise I won't cry. I am working very hard on pacing myself so I don't use up all my energy. Not easy for me, but it is getting better for me especially I am groggy most of the day.

I have talked to my IM Dr. about my meds. that is when he prescribed me Dicyclomine HCL 10mg. I am having most everyday trouble walking no strength so I use my cane or walker in the house but dr. says I may need to use my power scooter once in awhile on those very bad days.  I am experiencing blurred vision more often. Which scares me.  But my new goal or challenge is to fight Fibro as much as I can. I don't know if I can ignore the chronic pain. I am asking for your support and prayers. I am scared, unsure. Is it normal to lose more of cognition? My memory is getting very bad.

I will be seeing a new Social Worker in November. But I can call the therapist that I saw when I went in as an emergency case.  

That is I have to talk about for now. Oh, my car is broke, no way to get it repaired right now. Such is liffe.
Thanks to all of you. I want to get to a point that I can help others again. I feel like I have let my friends/family here down. I love all of you. I hope you all understand. And I will be here more like I use to:) Okay I am going to bed now.  I will check in tomorrow. Probably late morning Pacific time.(I hope I made sense tonight, because sometimes the correct words don't come out). Please be patient I don't want to hurt anyone.

Good Night & hugs to all of you,


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