Dec 31, 2014
Today has been very hard. I'm active in my addiction again. Worse than before. Now loving the holy trinity. Sometimes I toy around with the idea of trying heroin. Just cuz it's cheaper. These stupid laws made it so much harder to get any pills. I did try to quit about a month ago. Made it 2 weeks then gave up. I get so frustrated with life I don't feel like I'll ever be clean. Sometimes I pray for God's help. And sometimes I just ask him to take me away. Right now I feel like driving off a bridge. Just don't want to ruin the kids new years forever. I wish there was some way out. Think I need a miracle. Maybe tomorrow will be better.