Jan 28, 2015
I don't know what's wrong, I feel so low. So ******* low I have no idea why. I just want to dig that razor into my flesh but I cant do that. If I do that I loose, I loose to them stupid things in my head. That constant out burst of noise screaming down on me like heavy rain on a tin roof. It's so loud, so so loud. I need to do something productive. I'm going to attempt to go the gym and see what happens. I can't stay in these four walls though. I'll make a mess... I don't want to do that. I cant let people down again.