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Jan 31, 2015 - 0 comments

please. :(

So I think I might be pregnant with another mans child. On October 3rd, I had drunk car sex with a guy I hardly knew. I don't think it lasted very long because the car was moving so it would be difficult  and he was drunk too. The thing is I don't remember if he pulled out, came in me, or if we just stopped when the car stopped. I was so gone. But I felt really guilty about it and wanted to tell my boyfriend. But I didn't because I love him to death and I made a big mistake. So I got my period October 15th which lasted about 3 days which is somewhat normal. So when I had my period I thought "Yes!! Thank you god!!" And continued to be happy with my boyfriend. So my bf and I had sex and he came in me around the 20th and I thought "no biggie, it's impossible to get pregnant after your period. So I left it at that and we continued to be a happy couple until I missed my period the next month in November. I waited five days for my period to come and still nothing so November 20th I took a home test and it came out positive. I panicked and I remembered my drunken night so I made an emergency appointment to a free ultrasound clinic to see how far along I was. The nurse said I was 5 weeks and some days pregnant. Basing it off of my last period. she said it looked like how it's suppose to. She called it the "engagement ring stage" where it's the yolk sac and the tiny little embryo attached at the top. I told her my story and how afraid I was that it would be the other guys and she said to relax that it's my boyfriends. BUT I haven't been relaxing I've been freaking my self out more and more each week. She made me an appointment to see her again on December 8th where she took measurements and I heard the heart beat. She said I was 7 weeks and 1 day. BUT I take a closer look at the top of the picture of that ultrasound and it said 9 weeks and 1 day. Could this nurse be mistaken? Because I would have conceived the 6th of October and every one knows sperm lives in the body for a week tops. So it would have been that other guys baby. So now I'm freaking out even more and I go to my first OB appointment on the 21st of January and she said I was 14 weeks along again judging on my last period. And doing the calculations on the calendar, if it was with the other guy I would be 16 weeks. Idk what to do. I cry so much and I want to tell my boyfriend but I don't want to stress him out especially if it IS his. he's so happy and I feel like a piece of crap. I'm so confused!!!  

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