Feb 02, 2015
I am not sure really what I hope to accomplish by writing this but I had to put my dog to sleep Friday. The grief is totally overwhelming I loved her so much. I have been sober a very long time but this grief is taking me to my knees. She was only 6 I wasn't prepared for her to go. In 2 weeks time she went from a healthy dog to being blind and eaten up with disease, I cant seem to stop crying I keep looking for her.
My family is moving on, I am stuck in grief and despair, she was my everything, I dressed her dog dresses, dear God she was loved. I found myself on the floor in a ball today in despair, how can a dog make me so desperate. Nobody understands the despair I feel, she was beautiful, a Pomeranian, eyes so bright up until the last 2 weeks. I held her face until the end our noses together, I feel so sad, I miss her so much