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Nov 10, 2009 - 3 comments

I need to remember tonight as it was a little trying. While working on my truck, I was digging through my tools and came across a half full bottle of booze. I backed up like it was a rattlesnake and got my friend who was helping me to pour it out I didn't even want to smell it.
About a month ago I encountered a situation just as troubling-i had just gotten out of the hospital and immediately went back to work on a rental property. A couple of hours into it,one of the tenants walked in with a half gallon of liquor and proceeded to make drinks for everyone there. Next thing I know, he set a mixed drink in front of me and it was like stories in the big book- I was blindsided. It was too much too soon. Only another alcoholic could fully understand such a situation. With no mental defense against the first drink, I truly understand that concept now. I'm not making excuses, I'm just making sense out of something I'd read about and have now experienced myself. I had just spent over 2 weeks in the hospital, and picked it up. I would end up hospitalized again before it was over. If that isn't insanity as it is mentioned in the second step, I don't know what is. As such, my experience tonight has brought me some gratitude, and has shown me that I'm getting better. I can't take the credit though, that goes to god, all I've done is pray. I'm under some of the most adverse circumstances right now, but one day at a time I'm making progress. -

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by dominosarah, Nov 10, 2009
Yes you are making progress.  Way to go on getting thru another day......one day at a time         sara

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by freebird227, Nov 14, 2009
It was great seeing you the other night, and I hope you get your game back and stand strong in not using any mood altering chemicals.
Things will unfold exactly the way they are suppose to, all you need to be doing is not drinking.
Great job on dumping the booze.***************PM me if I can help at all.

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by boogieman, Nov 15, 2009
Thank you both so much for your kind words. I hit a bottom this time like no other-broken spirit, broken will, broken heart..... Ad infinitum. I'm just trying to trust in god and do the next right thing, and the support of you guys means a lot-take care,GM-

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