Nov 25, 2009
It has been exactly 2&1/2 weeks since it was discovered that I do not have a viable pregnancy. I have been spotting bright red for a few days now but,unfortunately I have not had the actual miscarriage yet.My hcg levels are finally starting to go down so hopefully I can get this over with soon. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving Day.Our family is so big that we have rented a hall so that we can all be together.The hall is about 1 hour away from my home.I am so scared that it will happen while I am there.No one knows anthing except my DH and my SIL. All of this time I have been praying that it would happen soon and now I want it to hold off atleast until the weekend. I don't want to ruin it for my kids.They are really excited about seeing all of their cousins. I have decided to make a Thanksgiving dinner for my family today just in case something happens.If I feel that I am cramping too much tomorrow then I will stay home and have the kids and DH go without me.Fingers crossed that it will be a good day!! XXXX
I have been having pregnancy symptoms still. These include; headaches,extreme nausea,avoidance of food,morning sickness,and bloating.Also, spotting bright red and some slight cramping has showed up this last few days. I will / or would be 11 weeks pregnant tomorrow. Damn it!!! I am so emotional. I really wanted to have another baby!! There is nothing that compares to being pregnant with your baby and feeling it move inside you.I have had 4 miscarriages!! I just can't believe that this is happening again.I just don't have the strength to keep going anymore."mentally and physically"