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Missed Miscarriage Journal #3

Nov 25, 2009 - 6 comments

missed miscarriage



It has been exactly 2&1/2 weeks since it  was discovered  that I do not have a viable pregnancy. I have been spotting bright red for a few days now but,unfortunately I have not had the actual miscarriage yet.My hcg levels are finally starting to go down so hopefully I can get this over with soon. Tomorrow  is Thanksgiving Day.Our family is so big that we have rented a hall so that we can all be together.The hall is about 1 hour away from my home.I am so scared that it will happen while I am there.No one knows anthing except my DH and my SIL. All of this time I have been praying that it would happen soon and now I want it to hold off atleast until the weekend. I don't want to ruin it for my kids.They are really excited about seeing all of their cousins. I have decided to make a Thanksgiving dinner for my family today just in case something happens.If I feel that I am cramping too much  tomorrow then I will stay home and have the kids and DH go without me.Fingers crossed that it will be a good day!!   XXXX
  I have been  having pregnancy symptoms still. These include; headaches,extreme nausea,avoidance of food,morning sickness,and bloating.Also, spotting bright red and some slight cramping has showed up this last few days. I will / or would be 11 weeks pregnant tomorrow. Damn it!!! I am so emotional. I really wanted to have another baby!! There is nothing that compares to being pregnant with your baby and feeling it move inside you.I have had 4 miscarriages!! I just can't believe that this is happening again.I just don't have the strength to keep going anymore."mentally and physically"

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by adgal, Nov 25, 2009
I know how you feel right now, I truly truly do.  It is so hard and so heartbreaking.  You know my story, and you know what?  You can have a happy ending too, although I know it doesn't feel like that right now.  If we are still conceiving, 1 is going to stick.  I wanted to give up so many times, and now, today, I am so glad I didn't. Take the time you need to mourn the way you need to, but if this is what you really want, don't quit.  When others told me that I often wanted to bop them one, but am so glad I listened.  Hang in there honey, and take good care of yourself.  For what it's worth, I am thinking of you and sending lots of positive thoughts your way.  ((((hugs))) Amanda

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by smr08, Nov 25, 2009
Debbie, I'm so sorry that your still going through all of this. I know how terrible a loss is, i've had 3, an early loss, an ectopic which resulted in the loss of my tube, and the loss of my son at 5 months. After my ectopic I gave up, I knew I couldn't do it again, well a few months later I was pregnant and gave birth to a healthy baby boy. You need time to take care of you and to heal physically and mentally and in the end the choice will be yours. I hope you have a blessed Thanksgiving with your family, my thoughts and prayers are always with you. ((HUGS)) Lori

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by Princessa745, Nov 25, 2009
I'm so sorry  it hasn't happended and you are having to go thru this at this time!! I really hope it happens soon and is not to painful!! I hope you can enjoy your thanksgiving with your family and my prayers are with you!! ((hugs)) Rosie.

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by Steph_b, Nov 25, 2009
Debbie,  I am thinking of you.  I hope you are able to enjoy your thanksgiving and soon put this behind you. -Steph

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by DMarie919, Nov 26, 2009
Praying for you Debbie...I am sorry this is happening.  

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by joal, Nov 27, 2009
Words can not express how sorry I am. It must be so difficult, I can not even imagine what you are going through. I hope everything went ok yesterday and that you could enjoy Thanksgiving with your family.

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