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Nov 28, 2009 - 8 comments

Went for an ultrasound today because I had some very light spotting and cramping on Wed/Thur.  Also, I seems to have lost most of my symptoms.  

Was told by the on call doctor that the sac had only grown a little bit and it didn't look like what we would see after seeing it on Tuesday.  He said that I would most likely miscarry in the next week.  

I am having a hard time believing that this is it for me.  We were measuring BIG on Tuesday and now we are measuring small?  Plus, on Tuesday my doc found the sac right away.  He had trouble finding it and had to go get another ultrasound machine.  He wasn't very encouraging or uplifting - horrible bedside manner.

So now - we are waiting until Monday.  I've got cramps up by my ribs and lower back pain on and off.  No spotting what so ever.  I go on Monday morning and I'm hoping and praying that this was a mistake and that things look great.  However, if it is going to happen I just want it to happen now to get it over with.

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by kylesMom09, Nov 28, 2009
I am really sorry that you are going through this and i truly hope that when you see your regular doctor on Monday you get some better news.  Until then just try to relax (i know easier said than done) and try to take it easy!  It is amazing how some doctors have zero sympathy in these situations, it makes everything worse for those who have their feelings involved.  I will pray for you and your little one and hope everything turns out ok!!  

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by Ashelen, Nov 28, 2009
I'm sorry you're having to wait through all the uncertainty :(. I'm really glad you're waiting to see what happens though, because sometimes it's just the ultrasound equipment that shows discrepancies in the heart goes out to you and I really pray that everything turns out better....hang in there. <3

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by natalie910, Nov 28, 2009
I am praying things will be just fine on Monday when you see your regular dr. The best thing you can do is just be positive and pray for the best. It is such a scary time, I know how nerve wracking it is...I'm going through it right now. Monday will be here b/4 you know it.

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by bam1014, Nov 28, 2009
Oh Stef, I know how awful the wait is and not having any answers.  Take heart in the fact that you are not spotting and that is a good sign.  So often these dr's are wrong in early pg.  I have lists of ladies who were told misinformation, only to have a healthy happy pg.  Please hun, keep your chin up and pray for the best.  And know that no matter what happens I will be here for you.

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by texasangel343, Nov 28, 2009
thanks ladies.  i'm hopeful - but i think this also prepared me for news we might hear on monday.  i'd rather be in shock that things are looking great then in shock that things aren't looking great.

luckly my appt is at 9 - so there wont be that much waiting.  although it usually takes about 2 hours to see the doctor.  

i will keep you updated.  until then, i'm on "bed rest" until monday ... just taking it easy around the house.  cramps are coming and going...feeling really good when they're gone.

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by thickm, Nov 28, 2009
i went through the same thing when i had my blighted ovum! sac wasnt there and then it was then it got smaller and it disappeared! i hope you continue with a normal healthy pregnancy and the tech was just an idiot! keep us posted! you are in my thoughts

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by texasangel343, Nov 28, 2009
well - the sac didn't get smaller - just didn't grow as much as he thought it should.  he was the head doctor of the practice - so i am shocked that he acted the way he did.  i will feel much better, no matter what happens, when i get to see my doctor.

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by steph9803, Nov 29, 2009
I know exactly what you mean about being better to be shocked by things being good rather than bad...that's what I've prepared myself for right now. I know that nothing I say can make the fears go away..It wasn't very long between your u/s so there might not be much change. That's why my dr. told me it's better to wait the two weeks..otherwise things might not look much different. He said it takes that long for things to really start showing better. Some dr.'s are just heartless and don't care what they say to try to sit back and relax for 20 something hours and we'll all be here praying for you!

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