Dec 02, 2009
This is my missed miscarriage journal #4.
I will be exactly 12 weeks tomarrow. 2 days ago my doctor wanted me to get another hcg draw .I went in and was urprised agin with the results.The levels are still rising.They are at 101,621 on Nov 30. On Nov 16th they were 85,283.0. I had a 2nd ultrasound done and the results are in on that also.The radiologist stated that it appears that I have a molar pregnancy with no fetal parts seen at all.This means that an empty egg was fertilized and the placenta is what is growing inside me. Now the placenta is filled with tumorous tissue and is filling my entire uterus. I have to have a D&C because I cannot naturally misscarry on my own.I have been waiting to misscarry for over 3 weeks now .The stress is awful. My body still thinks that it is pregnant and I am so sick all of the time.I am cramping on my side now and have been very nauseous. I vomit atleast twice a day and my abdomen is definately huge.It is really hard to hide this pregnancy now.
That being said unfortunately my DH does not understand at all!! He thinks that since there is no baby that there is nothing inside me and is in total denial.I know!! It is totally insane right? He is worried abot medical bills "since we have no insurance" so I think that is what is worrying him the most.He wishes that I could just misscarry on my own like I did the last 3 times. I have been spotting brown for what seems like this entire pregnancy and my levels are still rising.
I just finished applying online for Medical help and they sent me a letter that says that I appear to qualify for the program. Then I called the Health Dept and asked some questions.They will cover my medical bills for the prior 3 months!!Yay!!!!! Thank GOD!!!! I can't tell you what this means to me. I just told DH and he finally agreed to let me schedule the D&C. I hope that I can get it done soon because we are scheduled to leave for our Christmas vacation on Dec 23 in the AM.
I just told my husband and