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Whats wrong with me

Dec 06, 2009 - 2 comments

It feels like i dont know myself anymore...i used to be so happy and now i feel so sad all the time.The past few months i have been very sick.Been to the er so many times but every-time they send me home saying its something else each time i go.I just want my old self back.What is wrong with me????!!!!

I feel lost i feel like im stuck being sick.I really hope when i go to the Drs Tuesday it will shed some light for me.I need to know whats wrong.So i can be a great wife and a great mother like i used to be.Its not only me suffering its my family as well.I just feel like im all alone.I dont even wanna get out of bed because i feel so bad..i would rather sleep just so i dont have to think about whats wrong with me.

im afraid.

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by JennaRie, Dec 06, 2009
I know how you feel! When I was being undertreated for my hypothyroidism (I was in the "normal" range, but still having symptoms), the main word I used to describe myself was "alone." I felt like no one understood or cared how horrible I felt. I was just so tired all the time, not motivated to do any activities, and I would sleep for like 20 hours at a time when I didn't have school. It was the worst time of my life, and I still get angry now that the doctors wouldn't listen to me when I told them something wasn't right. I had friends who tried to cheer me up, but they weren't able to really understand why life was so hard for me because they had not experienced it themselves. I haven't experienced the racing heart and shakiness since the very beginning before they knew what was wrong, but I remember how awful it felt. I would just be sitting there and my heart would start pounding and my hands would tremble uncontrollably. It was so scary to not know what was going on. I was afraid I had some sort of heart condition! And the dizzy spells were really bad back then too. Seemed like every time I got up from sitting down, I would fall onto the floor because everything would go black and my heart would start racing trying to get blood to my brain. I feel like a totally different person now. I don't ever want to feel like that again!

I will pray that the doctors find out what is going on with you! I really hope it is a thyroid issue because it is a simple treatment. While improvement would be gradual, at least you'd have an answer and you'd see the light at the end of the tunnel!

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by iluvmylil1, Dec 07, 2009
Thank you...its just very hard not knowing whats wrong with you and the drs are telling you are fine.I know i am not fine.The way i have been feeling is not myself.You know when something is wrong with your body even when the Drs tell you nothing is.I just want to know and not keep guessing.Its bringing more stress into my life.I go to the dr tomorrow and i really hope he listens to me and not say "your fine".

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