Mar 07, 2015
I went to a Heart Dr up here in my town. He works with the other Heart Clinic I went to about a hour or more away from my town. I had taken my Mom here before and I really liked how he explains everything..NOW he told me I had a "Mild Heart Attack" way before I went and had that ekg that lead to having all those other test done. HE TOO was very concerned on why the Dr brought me out and said I needed a double by-pass and then took me back and could only get the one stent in. He knew that I lost my parents and other family members last yr all around the same time. He asked me if I felt any thing at all and I told him NO! 4-5 months before I went in is when I just thought it was my esophagus. I do know when I was at the treatment in Sept 2012 I was having heart issues and I told them. I know it was pumping very, very hard and they just thought it was part of the detox. WELL I have NO CLUE when I could of had one. I know I would do my drugs and snort them to get going as I was all spun. Then very late, late I would take the benzo to come down. I could of just been so passed out that I felt nothing.
This is a mystery to me. NOW this new one has me set up for a ego gram and another nuclear stress test. He wants to know where we are. If the one blocked artery is dead around that area then a bypass would not help that area of the heart. HE said that this is the reason I am so so so tired or fatigue all the time. If I can and do have the bypass I would have the blood flow and this would give me way more oxygen.
We talked about all the foods like the GMO and all the times they sprayed the crops as I was growing up. We also talked about all the chems, toxins and so on that we use to clean or at work. Even in the water and air. Well what are we to do?? I told him I always ate pretty healthy and always worked my ash off and hiked all the time growing up. We talked about how Heart and Cancer are killing people all the time and this is why we think it has to do with all the above I mentioned. There is more & more & more out in our world that is killing us.
Meanwhile he gave me a new med. The one med I stopped was making me real sick. He said I must take all of these even if I always have and had great BP. I told him I came up with tons of natural things to take, but he just smiled and said he would see me back here in 5 yrs for a new stent or I will be dead. HE said he wanted to keep me alive, not die. SO now I have to follow there orders and take all these darn meds. I swore I would never take another man made med in my life when I came clean..Ha! What a joke now. I want to live a bit more so I guess I will keep on the meds and maybe get this bypass done in the future if it is a must!!!!
Now for the past month or so I have been keeping myself busy. I try to go to church 2 times a week and hit both meetings during the week. I have lots of people out there trying to find me a clean friend too. It did take me a little over 2 yrs for ALL Receptors to start clearing up and all those other good receptors and chems and hormones and such. I do feel really, really good up stairs now. Even with this Heart thing, I am still learning and working on living my life clean & sober. I did not like the mental there for awhile. It was driving me nuts too many times to just give up. I am lucky I reads tons of info on this, or I would of thrown the towel in a while back.
Well I have not been on as much as I was for the past 2 yrs but the last 6 months now I have been healing better and better and learning to keep busy as I live my new Life. I love all my friends who have been with me since 2012 and I think of ALL of you often. Maybe some day I well get back and get on long enough to send some notes or PMS. Be good and Be Safe..Love Yas!!!