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Mar 18, 2015 - 34 comments

So a bit of a background before I start.

I went on the pill shortly after Preston was born, and stopped taking them probably around 8-10 months ago. For awhile after I stopped taking them, I was still having a 28 day cycle regularly. But then just over the last few months they started getting longer and longer. My longest is now 41 days....until now. I'm now on cd50 with no AF in sight. I had what I would call spotting about 2 weeks ago for 4 days. But wasn't even enough for a pad. So I've been questioning whether that was my period or not. And last cycle I had 1 day of spotting too.

Just this morning when I went pee, I noticed some CM with a slight streak of blood in it. So not sure what that was cause I've never had that before. And never had mid cycle spotting either.

But I have noticed the last few days, I've been feeling a little sick. And I know if this had been someone else writing this and I was reading it, my first response would be to do an hpt. But the truth is, I'm scared too. If this is indeed a pregnancy, it couldn't have come at a worse time. I haven't been working, so I will have no maternity leave pay coming in. No extra income to help feed this 3rd mouth.

And honestly I've been waiting for hubby's vacation schedule to come in so I could book an appt with my OB to have my tubes tied while he's on a week's vacation so he can help around the house. But it may be too late.

And yes we have been diligent about using condoms, but apparently the 1 time you don't is when it decides to potentially happen.

I guess my next step is to actually test first before getting worried

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by jugglin, Mar 18, 2015
Shanny, just know that everything happens for a reason.  I know that isn't what you probably want to hear, but I say it with a smile in my heart for you.  After struggling with infertility for my first two kiddos, my 3rd was not planned.  Yes, it was the 1 time (our anniversary) that we did not use a condom.  I cried for months when I found out I was pregnant with him.  I even refused his first ultrasound pics. I wanted the pregnancy to dissolve on its own.  I had no idea how it was going to pan out. It was a very dark time for me.  

Fast forward 8 yrs later. This boy is the light of my life. Don't get me wrong, I love all 3 of my kiddos, but he sure has a way of putting a smile on my face.  He rarely complains.  He loves to snuggle and lets me hug and kiss him whenever I want - even in front of his friends.  My life would be incomplete without each one of them.

My point is simply to just trust in whatever journey is ahead of you.  I know you are worried and scared.  I get it.  Just have faith.

Hugs and love to you!

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by KTowne, Mar 18, 2015
I agree with jugglin, everything happens for a reason, and everything has a way of working itself out. Take a test, then think of your options. You'll have 10 months to plan and I'm sure everything would work out! Thinking of you, and you'll have all of our support here if you are!

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by krichar, Mar 18, 2015
Sounds like we may be in similar boats... God only gives us what we can handle :) I look at my surprise as blessing and a miracle. We were told by a team of experts it would NEVER happen, we have been together for 14 years and never used any form of birth control... And after spending over $20,000 to have 1 baby here we are. I am turning 40 this year and DH 42...

First things first you need to know. If anything to ensure its a healthy pregnancy... But you could be worrying for nothing as well...

Whatever happens you've got this! We had the same fears... No mat leave but I'm not getting paid now so no big deal. CTB and UCCB will go up so theres a little extra income to help :)  for us with th new program it's abou $200/month which would more than cover extras for now :)

Anywho... Go POAS!! Lol

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by MyMelBgirl, Mar 18, 2015
Thre are many reasons besides pregnancy that can alter your cycle.  I would wonder if this was caused from stress. You've had the fire, looking for a job and worry of what info your neurologist shares about your results. I know everything will work out exactly as it should.  Sending you a hug

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by MyMelBgirl, Mar 18, 2015
*there not thre

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by Shannon79, Mar 18, 2015
Thank you ladies!

I know I just need to get it over with and poas.

Very true Ellen. I know that in the back of my mind. I've told people the exact same thing. But when it comes to actually being in the situation, knowing that info goes out the window. (At least it did for me anyway).

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by veronica0808, Mar 18, 2015
Well there is nothing left for me to say as everyone else have told u... Completely agree with everyone.. Just get it overwith and test why make urself worry atleast then u know and not b stresed if u are really not

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by Shannon79, Mar 18, 2015
Well AF may be on her way after all. Starting to have some spotting.

Haven't tested yet. I'm gonna wait and see what happens with this spotting.

I didn't think I was overly stressed. I didn't feel like it anyway. But I guess my body was more stressed then I realized

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by katmandu516, Mar 19, 2015
Hey Shannie girl, Just checkin' onya!  How's it goin? Everything alright? Always here for you, you know that.
Kat

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Thanks Kat! You're so sweet!

Still hanging in. (I'm sure you know how that is). How are you doing?

Nothing new to update though. Thought AF was gonna show her face, but nothing more then spotting. Was a little heavier spotting last night with some cramping. The thought of a chemical pregnancy crossed my mind, but there's not enough bleeding and the cramping wasn't excruciating.

Omg I'm being a friggin dumb@as. I need to just test already



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by heather727, Mar 19, 2015
You're at the store buying a test right now, right? Right?!

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Lol heather. Not at the present moment. But am considering walking to the pharmacy to get one. It's only like a 2 block walk

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by katmandu516, Mar 19, 2015
Hey Shannie...
Did you take a Pregnancy test?  Also have you thought of Ectopic Pregnancy? I had 2 of those, not to alarm you, but better sooner than later with getting that checked out if you know what I mean. I took a pregnancy test, it was positive both times. Had a lot of cramping too. Test first, then Dr apt. ok? Even if the test is negative, a Dr. apt. wouldn't hurt girlfriend. This is a hard subject, hope I did ok.
Kat
XOXO

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Well I have a test in my hot little hands. Now to wait until I have to pee. (Which won't be long with the way I've been peeing).

If I'm not pregnant, then my brain is doing one helluva good job of making me think I am. Peeing lots, on and off nausea, the girls are puffy (swollen), I've had an odd taste in my mouth. Not a metallic taste like I did with Preston. Can't describe it, just weird. But I think the biggest thing is the heightened sense of smell. I was at a bday party yesterday with Reilly at Pizza Hut. They had those little packs of crayons and colouring sheets for the kids. The crayons were sitting on the table a good 2-3 feet away from my nose and all I could smell was crayons. I even tried moving them further away and I could still smell them.

When I just went for a walk to get the test I went into the garage to get the little stroller for Preston so we could get there and back faster. All I could smell was gas from the gas can which was at least 5 feet away from me.

So wish me luck. I really don't know which way I want this to go

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by KTowne, Mar 19, 2015
Thinking of you! Can't wait to hear!!!!

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by heather727, Mar 19, 2015
It has been 34 minutes since your last post. This is sufficient time to have to pee. I'm waiting....

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by KTowne, Mar 19, 2015
Lol heather! I'm dieing to know too!!

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by krichar, Mar 19, 2015
Quietly humming the jeopardy song

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by krichar, Mar 19, 2015
Quietly humming the jeopardy song

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by heather727, Mar 19, 2015
Thanks krichar... that song is now stuck in my head. lol

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Lol you girls are funny!

I haven't done it yet. Wanna make sure it's a good pee

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Well it's a BFN. So I just wait for AF to show her ugly face

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by heather727, Mar 19, 2015
Well, at least we, I mean you know now!!

AF will probably be extra mean this month being such a long cycle. I've noticed my cycles aren't as regular as they were prior to Xavier's birth. I refuse to even concider that it has anything to do with my age - or the fact that my mom started having menopausal symptoms at my age...

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by KTowne, Mar 19, 2015
I've had really irregular periods and cycles lately too, and I'm on BC. I'm sure I'm not pregnant, have an appt. with my OB next week so hopefully they'll clear it up, it su*cks having irregular cycles!

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by Moma_Cher, Mar 19, 2015
Wow Shannon!! What an ordeal you just went through!! It was like 5 minutes of me resign through these posts and I was super anxious for you lol!! Can't imagine how crazy it's been for you!!!! Glad you're not in a "difficult situation" after all!!

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Our bodies are just so crazy and weird sometimes. It's amazing how your mind can play tricks on you into thinking you're pregnant. I never really thought about it until after I took the test....I saw that I was on CD50 with no AF in sight. So then I started thinking "what if I'm pregnant"? And then your brain completely takes over.

Lol Heather I refuse to believe the same thing! We're getting younger, not older!

K my cycles have been irregular for years unless i'm on the pill, so this is not uncommon. If I had been thinking straight, I would've known that this was a typical cycle.

Cher as much as I hate to say it...there is a small part of me that is sad that it wasn't a bfp. But the logical, practical side of me knows that this is not the time.

I have an appt booked with my OB at the end of march to go through discussing the procedure of getting my tubes tied. And I tentatively have an appt booked for the end of April for the surgery.

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by ribaby15, Mar 19, 2015
wait a week and do another test with morning pee shan! you should know better than that! lol

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Lol ri thanks! :-P

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by katmandu516, Mar 19, 2015
I'm glad everything is ok Shannie. But if you have the ins. I would go to my ob/gyn and get checked out. Boy with all those symptoms you posted, I thought for sure you were.
I was happy to hear you were nauseated, because they always say that's a sign of a healthy baby. Have you heard that? And when I had those ectopic pregnancies, I had no morning sickness at all. With my son, I was so sick, and the smells that you spoke of would send me running to the bathroom also. And with the ectopic I had a pain in my sides, which of course was the fallopian tubes. But I didn't know that...I just knew something was wrong.

So how are you feeling now?


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by MyMelBgirl, Mar 19, 2015
I'm so glad things turned out in your favor.  This is one worry behind you. Now I can wish you a belated Humper day :)

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Here in Ontario we don't need to have insurance to go to the Dr's. We have what's called O.H.I.P. As long as it's something not deemed cosmetic (ie: breast implants cause you want bigger ones), the government pays for it.

I'm feeling okay. As stated in a previous post, I am a bit sad it wasn't positive, but I know this is for the best.

I have a feeling that heather will be right about AF being extra mean this cycle with it being so long. I'm feeling crappy and I very rarely get cramps.

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
Haha Ellen happy belated hump day to you too! ;-)

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by Shannon79, Mar 19, 2015
The only thing that's puzzling me still is that my BBT is still up. I don't usually keep track of my temp, but the last few mornings I've done it just to see if it dips. My "normal" temp is in the mid 97's F. But it's in the high 98's F.

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by KTowne, Mar 19, 2015
Isn't it SO weird how even when we don't particularly "want" to be pregnant, when the scare comes up and you take a test, it's kind of a let down to be a BFN? Lol, guess we're kind of programmed to be sad when taking tests because mainly we take them when we WANT to be pregnant. We've had a few scares since Chloe and although we are "done" I will admit I was a little sad it wasn't positive those times. We're considering getting my tubes tied as well, I'm going to mention it to my dr when I see him next week

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