I am so sick of everything. I hate my life! I really do. I hate how evrything is going. I can't take it. I just want to die. There is not one good thing in my life right now. My mom is being a jerk. And I feel like no one gives a flying hoot about me. Even my mom. I feel like I am only taking up space on this Earth and I'm sorry to sound so depressing but this is how I feel right now. Also I'm really mad right now. I'm both. I just don't want to be here anymore. There is no use for me. I can't take care of myself and I really wish I could so I can just move out alone and not have to deal with people anymore. I am tired of being like this. I just want to be normal. I want to grow up and be a regular adult. I want to make my own calls, have money, work whatever, and do normal grown up things. I want to be like everyone else. I really do. I would give anything in the world just to be normal. I don't know why I can't grasp things anymore. All I know is I'll probably be stuck like this forever. Sometimes I feel like in the future I'll be put in a home. Not by mom but by someone else. I don't want to live like this. If I can't even feel alive why should I be. This is how I feel.