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I can't take it!!!

Dec 18, 2009 - 4 comments
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I am so sick of everything. I hate my life! I really do. I hate how evrything is going. I can't take it. I just want to die. There is not one good thing in my life right now. My mom is being a jerk. And I feel like no one gives a flying hoot about me. Even my mom. I feel like I am only taking up space on this Earth and I'm sorry to sound so depressing but this is how I feel right now. Also I'm really mad right now. I'm both. I just don't want to be here anymore. There is no use for me. I can't take care of myself and I really wish I could so I can just move out alone and not have to deal with people anymore. I am tired of being like this. I just want to be normal. I want to grow up and be a regular adult. I want to make my own calls, have money, work whatever, and do normal grown up things. I want to be like everyone else. I really do. I would give anything in the world just to be normal. I don't know why I can't grasp things anymore. All I know is I'll probably be stuck like this forever. Sometimes I feel like in the future I'll be put in a home. Not by mom but by someone else. I don't want to live like this. If I can't even feel alive why should I be. This is how I feel.

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by amylove21, Dec 19, 2009
You don't know. Maybe you will be able to grow up. You're just having some trouble. It doesn't mean that you won't ever grow up. Maybe you just need extra help. I know I don't always feel grown up. It can be stressful at times but don't give up. If you want something go after it. I really hope you feel better soon. You are worth something. Don't lose hope.

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by j9564, Dec 20, 2009
You know, we are all human beings, and trust me, there are so many people who have been in your situation and gotten through it, me being one. I can't believe how much my life has changed since i've felt the way you are describing. With alot of persistance and searching, I found that thing that I was searching for (that I didnt even know that I was searching for). I know the feeling of 'only taking up space on the earth.' What is normal? I used to struggle with the fact that I am 'different'. But that is what makes the world go around. Do you really want to be like everyone else? Life wasn't meant to be easy, I really believe that we were all put here for a reason, including you. You will find your way in time. Please cheer up! Be kind to yourself, you are not alone. :)

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by innerchild09, Dec 20, 2009
Thank you to both of you. I guess sometimes we need a little encouraging. I don't always get it now days. I'm glad you understand. Honestly I don't know if I'll ever find my purpose but I sure hope I do. I admit I spend a great deal of my time depressed. All I know is that I don't know if I'll ever feel like there is a place for me and a purpose but I hope so someday. Thanks to both of you once agian.

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by amylove21, Dec 21, 2009
No problem. We all need it now and then. I hope your holidays are great. Feel better now ok.

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