Dec 23, 2009
I am not mentally stable. I can't deal with my mom the only person I have in this dark world talk about suicide. I talk about it sometimes but when mom does it really gets to me. Expecially today because her sugur was low since she is deabetic. Then she took another pill on purpose trying to get in a coma. Later she did eat sweets, but that ain't the point. I really think she might do it soon. I think about it myself but I haven't actually tried anything but she has. And I have anxiety. I'm bipolar. I am social phobic. I have anxiety. I'm not mentally mature. I can't deal with this! It's not fair I don't want her to die! I don't see why she feels so hopeless. She has some goals she has set that she may be able to do. As for me there is nothing. If anyone dies it should be me. I don't have any hope expecially if she is gone. I can't deal with it!