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Our last try?

Dec 26, 2009 - 5 comments

So, I think this was the last time Rob and I are TTC. I'm turning 42 on Tuesday, December 29th which also happens to be 12 dpo. I'll start testing tomorrow and through Tuesday. I realize 10 dpo is early, but I bought a 3 pack of FRERs. I'm having period-like cramps tonight and my bbs are sore, but these are pretty normal for me. The cramps feel a bit different, though. I usually have them lower near my ovaries, but tonight they feel more like period cramps. I hope to God it's implantation cramping. I'll look for any bleeding tonight and tomorrow.

I don't really know why I get so hopeful every month any more. With a
diminished ovarian reserve, I don't know why I still think I could get pregnant.
I had a big meltdown last night. I was missing our baby so much. He would have been 2 on 12/21. I just sobbed and sobbed. I was so very sad. I woke Rob with my crying and he just held me until I could stop. He's such a wonderful husband.

So, wish me luck for the next 3 mornings of POAS. I'm not holding my breath by any means but still feel hopeful. I'm still hoping for a Birthday Miracle.



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by ladybug82, Dec 27, 2009
GOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  sending you BUCKETS and buckets of sticky baby dust !!!!! HUGS *;o) erika

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by Chandra2230, Dec 27, 2009
GOD will deliver you and your husband that special gift very soon. And please let me know if its a girl or a boy you will be having. And Yes I mean what sex cause you will have that precious lil one. Bless you and your family... Your new friend.....


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by amy0013, Dec 27, 2009
HUGS Sue!  I think it's your wonderful, amazing personality that allows you to remain so optimistic every month.  Don't discount that quality in yourself.  As always...I'm rooting for you and I hope this is it.  

Happy Early Birthday!

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by SueGre, Dec 27, 2009
10dpo BFN. It's not a surprise. If it's going to happen, it's early to test.

Thanks everyone for the awesome cheerleading!

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by alikat1205, Dec 28, 2009
I understand.  :) I hope it's good news.  Either way, it will be.  Either you will be pregnant, or you won't.  Either way it will work out.  If you're not, it's because there is another, awesome plan for you to be a Mommy another way.  Happy early birthday! (I turned 42 on December 5, that was a hard birthday, and cycle day 1 too).

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