Apr 08, 2015
Friends and family are going to start trickling into town tomorrow.....the flowers are being delivered and I'm sure the UPS and FEDEX drivers are quite tired of delivering to our home. Parties and appointments start tomorrow and I'm ready to start off this party....the wedding of my daughter is finally here and on April 11th, our daughter will wed!
Some of you may remember, when i came on here originally, Jan 1st, 2014, I had referred to the fact that my daughter had gotten engaged on Dec 25, 2013. I promised my daughter growing up, that if she would just not follow in MY footsteps......go to school, participate, don't get pregnant, graduate high school, go to college, and get married before you have children! Well.....she did it! So it was then time for me to put up or shut up! On Dec 25th, is when I realized that my $1600/ per month drug habit was going to have to go! I made the decision, was sick as **** for what seemed like forever, and here I am 15 months later....clean, sober and much, much happier.
I was sharing in a meeting the other night that I've reached my goal and accomplished this wedding. In the back of my addict little mind I was thinking....hmmm, I did it....do I want to stay clean? I know, duh????? But I think something happened in the 15 months that I've been immersing myself in N/A.....a spiritual awakening of sorts.....I like what I've learned about myself so far and I'm totally interested in learning more. Something has been lifted from me that I can't describe....but i do feel lighter.....am I happier today then I was 15 1/2 months ago???? Absolutely!!!! I don't want to turn back....I want to continue moving forward.....
This is a great time in my life.....and I'm clean to enjoy it!