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Apr 11, 2015 - 3 comments

Well i start school in less than 2 days now...
Apparently this term is going to be even tougher than last term... I have to admit, i didn't do much last term. But its going to be okay. I am slowly trying to get myself organised. I have a calendar now, for my school assignments/tests/assessments/important dates. And then i have a corkboard for any reminders or post-it-notes. I am getting there. I think its just the studying part now that i have to get a hold of. I can do it, I can. And I will. I just need to patient with myself. And you know the thing is, for so long I have told myself the same thing over and over again. But it HAS to be different this time. I need to get through this year, or else i dont have a chance for next year. I am going to be organised. I am going to work SMART, instead of HARD. And I am going to look back in a couple of months and realise how far I have come. I want to improve... but I am sick of just wanting it. It has to happen. Actions are more important than words. I feel sort of positive about this term... I wont give up. I cant give up this time. Or else im probably just going to repeat year 11... and I dont want that to happen....

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3060903 tn?1398568723
by Nighthawk61, Apr 12, 2015
wow I'm sure liking the sound of this honey

I think that it's going to make a difference that you're working with your Aunt... and spending some time with them
I think that they are good influences on
going biking with you for example

you had said that you wonder why you cry so easily in front of your uncle when it doesn't happen with your mom or grama, I think it could be that you can manipulate your mom and grama. In other words, they have become accustom to your saying NO to their suggestions that they've made to help you throughout the years. and you can ignore them. What are they going to do ? throw you out into the street ? but with your uncle and your aunt, you know that if you don't take their suggestions, if you do not improve with their suggestions, they will one day give up (a lot sooner than your mom or gram ). So that could be why you are emotional. That you feel a little bit of stress because you must follow through with what is expected of. you. A kid who goes astray because they have no guidance is one thing, but a kid who throws guidance back in the face of their mentor is one who is not going to benefit from a mentor's words, so why would a mentor waste their time essentially on someone who has the potential but refuses to use it ?

I think it's good for you to live in the real world, even if that might mean the end of innocence for you. You will learn that if you were working, for instance, but not up to your potential, an employer might be good enough to sit down and tell you how you need to proceed to keep your job, but if you didn't adopt the right policies you will be losing your job ... shortly. This is real life. Learning to be pragmatic, learning to be business like, and making decisions and adopting habits based on logic and reason rather than emotion, is where you're at. It's you becoming an adult.

Also, your relationship with your Aunt and Uncle is going to teach you about married or common law relationships that work (as does theirs hopefully). That's not something that you can get from your mother as she is alone. This is very important for you to be around. Please don't make the mistake of running away from these mentor's because you are confused about the pragmatic aspect of their teachings. Okay?

It's also teaching you that you are worthwhile for people to spend time with. without being paid to do so. If you can keep their friendship you know that you are worthy of being friends with adults because you can give as much as you take.

IT'S IMPORTANT THAT YOU START TO HAVE RELATIONSHIPS WITH ADULTS

THIS WILL ONLY HAPPEN IF THEY LIKE YOU.

SO IF ADULTS CONTINUE TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU , YOU KNOW THT YOU ARE LIKABLE.  

IT ALSO MEANS THAT THEY HAVE RESPECT FOR YOU.  

MOSTLY IF YOU CAN TAKE CONSTRUCTIVE CRITCISM.

BECAUSE AN ELDER WILL ONLY SPEND THEIR VALUABLE TIME ON THOSE THAT DESERVE THEIR TIME

THAT'S HOW VALUABLE YOUR TIME GETS AS AN ADULT

ADULTS OTHER THAN YOUR MOM AND GRAM REQUIRE MORE EFFORT ON YOUR PART

YOUR MOTHER DESERVES YOU TO TREAT HER AS YOU WOULD YOUR AUNT AND UNCLE AND HOPEFULLY IN TIME YOU WILL SEE THAT IT IS THE YOUR FAMILY THAT REALLY DOES EARN YOUR GREATEST LOVE AND RESPECT

You're learning about love honey. You will someday learn that your mom is your best friend.

Quote of my day ? that I wrote down for prosperity ?

WHEN YOU'RE ALIVE YOU CAN FORGIVE AND BE FORGIVEN
AFTER YOU'RE DEAD IT GETS SIGNIFICANLY HARDER

You could also use a few different words instead of forgive,, use could use love, respect , empathise , care ... and the list goes on......

Have a great week Marcy.
xo Liz




3060903 tn?1398568723
by Nighthawk61, Apr 12, 2015
wow I'm sure liking the sound of this honey

I think that it's going to make a difference that you're working with your Aunt... and spending some time with them
I think that they are good influences on
going biking with you for example

you had said that you wonder why you cry so easily in front of your uncle when it doesn't happen with your mom or grama, I think it could be that you can manipulate your mom and grama. In other words, they have become accustom to your saying NO to their suggestions that they've made to help you throughout the years. and you can ignore them. What are they going to do ? throw you out into the street ? but with your uncle and your aunt, you know that if you don't take their suggestions, if you do not improve with their suggestions, they will one day give up (a lot sooner than your mom or gram ). So that could be why you are emotional. That you feel a little bit of stress because you must follow through with what is expected of. you. A kid who goes astray because they have no guidance is one thing, but a kid who throws guidance back in the face of their mentor is one who is not going to benefit from a mentor's words, so why would a mentor waste their time essentially on someone who has the potential but refuses to use it ?

I think it's good for you to live in the real world, even if that might mean the end of innocence for you. You will learn that if you were working, for instance, but not up to your potential, an employer might be good enough to sit down and tell you how you need to proceed to keep your job, but if you didn't adopt the right policies you will be losing your job ... shortly. This is real life. Learning to be pragmatic, learning to be business like, and making decisions and adopting habits based on logic and reason rather than emotion, is where you're at. It's you becoming an adult.

Also, your relationship with your Aunt and Uncle is going to teach you about married or common law relationships that work (as does theirs hopefully). That's not something that you can get from your mother as she is alone. This is very important for you to be around. Please don't make the mistake of running away from these mentor's because you are confused about the pragmatic aspect of their teachings. Okay?

It's also teaching you that you are worthwhile for people to spend time with. without being paid to do so. If you can keep their friendship you know that you are worthy of being friends with adults because you can give as much as you take.

IT'S IMPORTANT THAT YOU START TO HAVE RELATIONSHIPS WITH ADULTS

THIS WILL ONLY HAPPEN IF THEY LIKE YOU.

SO IF ADULTS CONTINUE TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU , YOU KNOW THT YOU ARE LIKABLE.  

IT ALSO MEANS THAT THEY HAVE RESPECT FOR YOU.  

MOSTLY IF YOU CAN TAKE CONSTRUCTIVE CRITCISM.

BECAUSE AN ELDER WILL ONLY SPEND THEIR VALUABLE TIME ON THOSE THAT DESERVE THEIR TIME

THAT'S HOW VALUABLE YOUR TIME GETS AS AN ADULT

ADULTS OTHER THAN YOUR MOM AND GRAM REQUIRE MORE EFFORT ON YOUR PART

YOUR MOTHER DESERVES YOU TO TREAT HER AS YOU WOULD YOUR AUNT AND UNCLE AND HOPEFULLY IN TIME YOU WILL SEE THAT IT IS THE YOUR FAMILY THAT REALLY DOES EARN YOUR GREATEST LOVE AND RESPECT

You're learning about love honey. You will someday learn that your mom is your best friend.

Quote of my day ? that I wrote down for prosperity ?

WHEN YOU'RE ALIVE YOU CAN FORGIVE AND BE FORGIVEN
AFTER YOU'RE DEAD IT GETS SIGNIFICANLY HARDER

You could also use a few different words instead of forgive,, use could use love, respect , empathise , care ... and the list goes on......

Have a great week Marcy.
xo Liz




3060903 tn?1398568723
by Nighthawk61, Apr 12, 2015
sorry I meant POSTERITY instead of PROSPERITY

PROSPERITY MEANS RICH

POSTERITY MEANS FUTURE GENERATIONS

POSTERITY

Posterity will remember her as a woman of courage and integrity.
A record of the events was preserved for posterity.
The truth about what happened will be known to posterity.
Her broad aim is to reconcile the image of Johnson—the clubbable man, loved by posterity as well as by his contemporaries—and the man racked by disease and tormented by his fear of madness. —Frank Kermode, New York Review of Books, 22 June 2006


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