Dec 10, 2007
My health is very, very delicate. There is so much going on with me medically that I don't understand. I am writing this journal for myself, so I can learn to make sense of everything that is going on with me. I am 29 years old right now. I was diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure almost two years ago. I quit having my periods when I was 20. And, come to think about it, I think my menstral cycle has always been irregular after the first year I started. I was in 5th grade. (don't know what age and right now I'm so tired that I don't want to count back that far). LOL.
I don't recall if it was actually diagnosed, (some reason I am thinking yes), but I was diagnosed with Chronic Pancreatitis and Cholostatitus (spelling?). I have no idea what any of those two words mean. I have been told a few times, but medical terminology doesn't register in my mind. I know I can't afford to be careless, but at the same time, I guess I am just scared by those big words.
I keep getting major, major numbness in my hands and feet/ toes and fingers. Diabetes is HHUUGGEEE in my family and I am wondering if that is what's going on with me in that respect?
For years now, I have had major, major abdominal pains. Nausea and vomiting usually comes with that chronic abdominal pain. Sometimes the abdominal pain is excruciating that I'm up in tears all day and all nite and all the next day; while other times, there will be long periods of time before the pain and vomiting comes back. How scary is that????
I don't know why my health is like this? To make things a bit more complex, I have really bad arthritis in my lower back. I have two fractured disks in my lower back, which I am thinking contributes to the arthritis? But also, I don't know if my Premature Ovarian Failure plays a part in this as well? Hhhhmmmm......Questions, huh.
So yeah, medically, this is Me. Outside of my medical conditions, I am living my life with an upbeat personality making all of my dreams come true. Nothing is holding me down from making everything I want to come true, come true..........my dreams are waking up right in front of my eyes and I am truly grateful and humble for this to be happening to me............_ L