Dec 11, 2007
Oh where to start. I feel like sh*t sooo bad. I'm dehydrated AGAIN and the pain...OMG. I have done too much crying the past few days. I told my GI off and going back the one i had before. i know this isn't just my scleroderma, it can't be. i know i have a dialted duct in my pancreas, have lost 29 lbs. in last 5 weeks, startin not to pee now, my muscles hurt so damn bad, my stomach hurts soooooo bad. i can't even drink my sprite i've been living on. i'm a mess and now i'm crying again while i'm typing this and i keep messin up typing!! i'm really not feeling sorry for myself i'm just really tired of feeling like this. these are the times i want to curl up and die. it seems like there is no end to this at all. i just need to suck it up and deal with it...i have to. and now i'm feeling guilty becuase i need to write to all my friends because i truly do care about everyone. please bear with my my friends, And Sunny i really need ya.