Jun 02, 2015
The only thing that I can think of that is keeping me going now, is next year. Next year, as i will be in year 12, there will be a whole school assembly to congratulate us for making it this far. We will receive badges and will be called out one by one to collect them in front of the school. This is what i look forward to most, although it will be nerveracking... but not only do i want the teachers seeing me and being proud of me, but i want to walk out there and feel like i belong in year 12. Like i worked my *** off to be there and i am proud of it. If i walk out there knowing that I am in the same place that i am right now, i would not be smiling at all. I would regret everything and would feel terrible. And i want to do everything in my power to avoid feeling that way. I want to feel like im meant to be there, I want everyone to see how far I have come. I want to see myself how far i have come. So thats what im looking forward to, that could be the highlight of my school years if i let it be... but i have to work hard. Ill remind myself of this every day if its the only way to get me going.