Feb 01, 2010
im 11 weeks and 2 days pregnant today. i and my husband went to ob to have my u/s bc im spotting for almost 5 days. first day its just like a brown discharge like your having a period it lasted for 4 days and yesterday when id pee wipe it becomes pinkish brown....we'r so scared but before that last friday afternoon. i eagerly went to my ob to check me up if everything fine. he told me that the baby was in good condition, yet im still afraid of wats happening inside of me. i dont have any cramps, my symptoms went on and off. today my ob sent me to er for scan. our day went black and i feel cold until now. the scan is really bad the worst thing is why im still getting symptoms of pregnancy while my baby stop growing at 7 weeks. my tummy becomes big and my breast too. i gain weight. why this thing happen to us. tech said, after knowing that i m/c 2 before and this was the 3, its just bc something need to know deeper why this happen for the 3rd tym. its bc there is a problem with me or my husband due to genetic. tech was so nice to us. she explained everything , she saw me like a burning candle. i cant talk, i just stared at the photo of my baby's ultraschal while printing. tonight im alone 2gether with my 12 yr old son. still thinking how to accept again this matter. i have nobody to talk 2. my husband went back to work. i cant still believe that we'd lost our baby again for the 3rd tym. im so thankful that we#d already have a healthy 12 yr old son. he cried also but keep on telling me "mama, its okey maybe this is not the right time again for us to have a new baby, dont worri mama our baby was already with my 2 siblings up in heaven" my hearts broke and shed of tears falls down of my eyes.....how, how can i say goodbye to our three lil angels above?