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I wake up dead

Feb 02, 2010 - 0 comments
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waking up dead

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energy buzz

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school

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Jess CUL

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Liah CUL

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groups

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chef

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debate

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drawing

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steve

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over the hedge

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keri

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blue dress

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PROM

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cinderella

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YAP

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shei

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mental pease

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the language

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laugh

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communication

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Snowboarding

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dress shopping

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model outfit shopping

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chelsey d



But with that little buzz.  That small feeling like, what could I accomplish today? I have the whole world at my feet. But I stil can't get out of bed. I am not a zombie.  So I go to school. And I like the fact that Jesss is never working with your group. Because Leah will work with me, I enjoy her company, and  she mutually hates Jess. Tomarrow Jess with be washing dishes by herself.  Because we told chef. Not tattling persay, just justice.  I wonder what that means we'll be doing tomarrow?Oh well.

I can debate like a champ and I know that. I just need to stop blushing and stumbling and giong on personal rants. We won our debate today.

I also went home, drew a pretty picture, andwent to Steve's house. We watched Over The Hedge.  I love  that movie, but I have a physical need to whine whenever he says it's name.  I washed my hair!
And Keri's letting me use her dress for prom. I think it's a beautiful dress, and I loooove the color, but it doesn't look right on me. It almost fits perfect  though. It's my hair color and skin color.  I felt like cinderella though.

I am going to ...I don't know.  I ahve YAP tomarrow and I will  be happy. Because I talked to Shei and wsteve was right about it being a misunderstanding. It was bugging me so much, no knowing what had happened. Like, tearing at my brain kind of bugging.  So tomarrow should be good. Also becasue I've been happier on the meds.  I've been cheerful. I end everything with a laugh. But most importantly I feel easier to communicate with. I do feel human. I feel like I've learned a language I never knew before that people will actually respond to.  I can work with this.  Thursday maybe I'll go snowboarding! And Friday I intend to go outfit/dress shopping with Chelsey.  And so it should be a good week. I can do it.

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