Feb 16, 2010
I wish I didn't look/update my pregnancy ticker today. All I want to do is cry, it says I'm 6 weeks 6 days, but I believe I'm only 6 weeks 4 days (due to when I ovulated, I'm waiting for my next ultrasound to get a better due date). When I miscarried in November, they said the baby stopped at 6 1/2 weeks, right where I am now. It's SO hard to keep myself from crying. I exercised yesterday, and feel a little better today. I did throw up this morning from brushing my teeth, so it's not like that's gone away (although last time it didn't either). I just can't stop second guessing all my symptoms. I'm trying to be strong, part of me really wants to take my midwife up on her offer to see the baby but I'm just scared. I really want to try and be strong and make it to my next apt on the 3rd, it's only two weeks from tomorrow.
I'm just so scared, sad, and depressed.