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Here I am, about 6 1/2 weeks again...

Feb 16, 2010 - 10 comments

I wish I didn't look/update my pregnancy ticker today.  All I want to do is cry, it says I'm 6 weeks 6 days, but I believe I'm only 6 weeks 4 days (due to when I ovulated, I'm waiting for my next ultrasound to get a better due date).  When I miscarried in November, they said the baby stopped at 6 1/2 weeks, right where I am now.  It's SO hard to keep myself from crying.  I exercised yesterday, and feel a little better today.  I did throw up this morning from brushing my teeth, so it's not like that's gone away (although last time it didn't either).  I just can't stop second guessing all my symptoms.  I'm trying to be strong, part of me really wants to take my midwife up on her offer to see the baby but I'm just scared.  I really want to try and be strong and make it to my next apt on the 3rd, it's only two weeks from tomorrow.

I'm just so scared, sad, and depressed.

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by Heatherm4, Feb 16, 2010
Oooh ya sorry you feel like this. This is exactly how I felt Saturday...my anxiety level was very high and I had too much time to sit around and just think about it. It'll pass. If seeing your baby early will make you feel better than maybe you should. On my next doctors appointment I'm going to mention my anxiety to him and see if I can see my baby early possibly. Just to calm my fears. Exercise does help though...and keeping busy.

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by 7yrslater, Feb 16, 2010
I feel for you. I'm in the same boat today. Last cycle I was 4wks 3days when I m/c'd. That's where I am today. But things feel different this time and my Ovulation trackers looks better this time. Try to keep busy if that's possibleor go in and have that scan to ease your mind alittle.

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by cocacolapanda, Feb 16, 2010
Thanks, I'm trying to keep myself busy, but my mind just keeps wandering to think about it all.  My contacts have been staying nice and moist.  I think I'm going to wait and see how I feel tomorrow to decide if I need to see the baby.

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by cocacolapanda, Feb 16, 2010
7yrslate - yeah, things defiantly feel much different for me this time too, See I had a missed miscarriage last time and my symptoms weren't nearly this strong, however I still "felt" pregnant.  The only symptom was that I wasn't acting crazy anymore, which I defiantly am still crazy!  lol.

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by Tasha505, Feb 16, 2010
I understand... I'm a little scared too! Mine stopped developing at 7 weeks, which is where I'm at now. But you can only hope for the best! You have a beautiful child already and a miscarriage is something that frankly just happens, it doesn't mean you're cursed to have them from now on. It just means your body saw a problem with that particular fetus and took care of the problem. (I hate when girls ask "why did you have a miscarriage?" I just say because nature was doing it's job) I know plenty of girls who had miscarriages, and their next pregnancy was a total success! SO just stay in good spirits and know that your baby is going to be ok. I totally understand... it is a scary thing, but just hope and pray for the best! Best wishes!

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by 7yrslater, Feb 16, 2010
For some reason we have in our heads that we are invincible(spelling). Once we have a m/c that kind of crushes our egos and we realize we're not invincible when it comes to carrying a baby so then we doubt ourselves from then on out. But like Tasha said our bodies are amazing things and it wouldn't let something happen that wasn't right or fit for us. We can all just hope that we enough have healthy eggs and sperm that a m/c won't happen again. Good luck to all of us and try to stay +.

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by GinaGi, Feb 16, 2010
Aww sorry you are feeling sad .. Go see the baby if it will make you feel better.  It's better than worrying , remember what you feel the baby feels.
lots of hugs

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by cocacolapanda, Feb 16, 2010
Thank you all!  I'm feeling a little better and decided that I'll "sleep on it"  If I still feel this way tomorrow I'll call her up and see if I can get in.

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by Nikkij6577, Feb 16, 2010
Hey Coca, I know exactly how you feel.  I lost my Angel at 6wks and 5 days in 11/09.  I am now 4 weeks and I am trying to be positive.  I have prayed and I am at peace that everything will work just fine.  I am praying that you too will have a happy and healthy 9 months.  My appointment is also the 3rd.  It will be my 6 weeks appt.  Please send me a note and let me know how I went.  I will also do the same. SSBD!

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by cocacolapanda, Feb 16, 2010
Thanks, I hope your apt on the 3rd goes well too!  I'll defiantly let you know how it goes!  My morning sickness seems to have started to get worse again this afternoon.  They changed the air freshers in the bathrooms now they make me sick!  I've also had a little more to focus on this afternoon too.  

I keep telling myself everything is fine and will be, I know it will, but part of me is just on edge.  I knew this week would be hard, all I can hope for is a busy next few weeks till I get to see my baby again!

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