Aug 17, 2015
I am sitting in my car right now trying to decide if I need to check my self into a mental hospital. I have been battling panic attacks and fear everyday for the last 3 months I get dizzy light headed scared sweaty hands cold feet but most scary is I feel like I'm going blind in the height of my panic attack I literally can't see I get tunnel vision my depth perception is off and everything starts to fade to black. And then at that point I make my piece with God because I feel like I am dying. I don't know what to do anymore I don't have any peace in my soul or my mind. I have with drawn from my family I have 3 son's and a husband who at this point I'm thinking of divorcing because I feel like he might be the reason for my anxiety. They have put me on lorazepam I started taking it 3 days ago it helps for a short time but then the anxiety comes back because I start thinking I'm having a bad reaction to the medication. God please take this fear away from me and give me a sound mind I pray this all day everyday.