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Feb 25, 2010 - 3 comments

God this is so hard to watch my sister as see goes threw the death of her daughter, and how much pain must my neice been in to take her own life! I am said and angry and mixed up and I hate this there really is nothing I can do to help her, She is my little sister and has always had it hard, and before I was always able to help, pay rent or buy food, or give her a ride, go with her to apts that she was worried about, stay up late and talk, but this this I can't fix, I can't even under stand it much less help, and the way she lefted this world, how do I deal with that, or my children how can they make sense of any of this, I hope she knows how loved she really is, I know that her time on earth she didn't always feel loved, and I hope now that is all she can feel,  Aunt Julie loves you so Courtney Mae!!!!!

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by turkee23, Feb 25, 2010
im sorry to hear about your niece... your family will be my prayers...

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by Judy246, Feb 25, 2010
Just to be there and listen is huge. I had 7 deaths in 8 months, one was my mother, brother in law, fiance's father and my brother loss his first child 2 weeks before Christmas. It brought me to my knees and almost had to be hositalized, because of the stress (loss job because I couldn't function) and every time I would "wail"...not cry "wail" in sorrow, my throat would swell dangerously. I will tell you what helped me get through it. My faith in God. God is my strenght, support from fiance who's dad died a week after mom was buried. All the kind and beautiful cards we received and just time. Death is cruel, raw and merciless and will test the very core of your faith, but stay strong and you and she will be like me....a survivor. Very difficult day's ahead, because there is no way around this one, but family, friends and a support group of people who understand her pain can help to just talk. Please invite her to visit our "Grief and loss" forum. It got me through the wanting to die and be with my mom. God bless and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

p.s. loss her grandmother and knows the pain and grief also, so we do understand the pain from death. Judy

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by Judy246, Feb 25, 2010
My apology, I meant that "turkee" recently loss her grandma also.

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