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A year and a half later!

Feb 26, 2010 - 8 comments

Im so excited about the summer I have ahead of me The plan is!! I am leaving for Alaska on the 27th of may. Will be in Alaska for the whole summer doing something I love!!! I will be working with a programme called HOPE, I will be working with childern with disabilities, doing camps, fun activities and maybe a bit of home help to... I can not wait to get over there! i will be making most of my free time, sight seeing, shopping and making new friends!! On the 18th of August i will be going to Chicago for the week! I am so excited about this as I have heard so many amazing stories about it!!

I just hope everything goes the way I need it too... I just pray that nothing goes wrong between here and then!

The past year and a half as been the worst of my entire life. How I survived it baffles me!! I am a bit concerned that my anxiety will start back when I get over there :-( and then cause I am worrying about that now, my anxiety is a lil elevated!! I still have a long way to go. Need to do major work on self confidence, self esteem and some other issues!! I just do not want to give up... Not just yet!

I have over come a lot the past year and unfortunately feel Iv have hit a brick wall! There are some things I dont know how to change, like how to bulid my self confidence?? thats a hard one to do! Im hoping Alaska will make me be a bit more independant, maybe I wont rely on friends and family as much!! Maybe then I can be my own person!
All I know is, life is a struggle, and feeling this bad about yourself is not healthy, so Im going to try and work on all this!!!

Just need inspiration!!!!

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by mami1323, Feb 26, 2010
Sounds like you have a great summer planned.  Getting away sometimes is just what you need.  You get to re-evaluate your goals and you can let loose a bit.  Like starting over fresh.  Your self confidence will come I think as you move forward in your life.  Becoming less dependent on others and more on yourself.  Plus, you are still growing as an individual, this is a great time to get to know yourself.  Don't worry, you will do wonderfully in Alaska.

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by Jennifer1987, Feb 26, 2010
Thanks! I cant wait!  Bit nervous but thats to be expected! Have never travelled before, only on holidays and that was only for a week here and there lol!!!! I feel like this oppertunity has come at a good time, I can learn to be myself and survive on me own!!!! Which cause of college and being broke I have not done yet!!

Thanks for your kind words!!!!!!!

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by specialmom, Feb 26, 2010
Yes, I am so glad you are going to Alaska to "start" your life.  You are pursuing your dreams (and what a wonderful dream it is!) and making your own mark on the world.  I know you've had some serious trials and tribulations, but you can now etch out your own life how YOU want it.  No, it won't always be perfect . . . but you are in the drivers seat now.  

One of the ways to build self confidence is to pursue your passions.  Remember that what happens in your past is part of who you are but does not define you.  I see great things ahead for you, I really do.  Best of luck to you and you always have your friends here at medhelp!!

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by Jennifer1987, Feb 26, 2010
Im sure il need ye for advice when Im over there!!! Hey, ye know more about America than i do lol!!! I have never even seen a dollar bill, thats how bad I am!!! :-)

I am going to stay as positive as I can!! This is going to be an experience no matter how it goes!!

Thank you so much for all the advice and help!!! made me realise I had to change my situation.. And that is what i am doing!!!!

Thand you!!!

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by LindaTX, Mar 01, 2010
Hi Jen, everything sounds great and you are set to go.  I will be up there sometime in May.  I'll be sure and give you my #.  I was wondering if you had been able to get in touch with others that may be going there to work also?  Will the HOPE staff have living quarters for you?  I'm assumung they do. I'm sure they, and you have everything covered.  Alaska is not only beautiful and pristine, there's a lot to see and do.  It's a good fun place to live. Anchorage even has a small zoo,  not far from where you'll be, and even an indoor water park. You won't ever be bored, I promise!  This will probably be our last summer up there since my husband has retired and we hope to sell our place in Wasilla....about 40 mi out of Anchorage.   They say once you live in Alaska and always go back.

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by Jennifer1987, Mar 01, 2010
Hey Linda! Ya Im about set now! All booked and everything! Ya, we have dorm style houses and even get a car per hourse! All paid for!!!!! I cant wait to go on trips etc. the weekend we arrive it memorial weekend so we are going campinng I think!! I know aload of people who are going back again and have wonderful things to day about it!!! I plan on doing a lot and taking loads of pics!!!!!!!!!!!

I havent spoken to anyone else from Alaska unfortunately but Im sure Il meet loads while Im thre!! I really want to experience an Americal Football game!!!! They look so great on tv!!!

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by sstitanic2, Mar 01, 2010
Hi Jennifer:
I know you will do just fine. You will be so busy with HOPE and seeing new things you won't have time for anxiety. Embrace every aspect of your life and enjoy every moment God grants you. You will see and experience many wondrous things. Make wonderful memories and have fun.  

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by Jennifer1987, Mar 02, 2010
Thank you!!!! I really hope so!!! Im going to do my best and at least I can always say I tried!!!!!!!

Thanks for your kind words!

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