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Feb 26, 2010 - 4 comments

I have now been TTC for 2 year and 5 months, 1 year and 5 months of that has been on Meds.
I've had testing and surgery to find endometriosis, adhesions, and both tubes being totally blocked needing reopened.
I've had many hard months seeing BFN after BFN, and it has gotten to the point I feel hopeless. I have lost my faith that it will happen for me, and my body feels like I've beaten it to death. My finances are getting so tight from all of this and it's straining my bank account and at times it feels my marraige. I need time to get right with myself again.
I need to concentrate on me for the next few months, get healthy and financially stable again. I want to be able to take a day off work FOR ME. Not to go to the doctors etc. etc.  If anyone would think I'm giving up I'M NOT, and if anyone were to think I'm not doing everything I can, I have. I just need time for me and to try and remember how to live with out worrying about Ovulating, the horrid TWW that always leads me to tears anyway. I feel like a ton of bricks have been taken off my shoulders. Maybe now that's I'm not trying , I'll get pregnant......  :)

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by LandM2009, Feb 26, 2010
Do what you need to do for yourself sweetie. Being stressed out and worried about money is never a good way to live. Take care of yourself. You will be in my prayers. Get what you need to get that awesome positive attitude back.

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by ladybug82, Feb 28, 2010
yes as landm2009 sed take as much time, and relax girl you will be prob so lucky and blessed to get preggos without even trying!!! I So hope that happens. You have a friend here if you ever need to talk , TIGHT TIGHT hugs *erika.  

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by rebel5, Mar 09, 2010
Thinking of you xoxox

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by Cherie762, Mar 09, 2010
Have you been to hysterectomy forum? we talk of alternatives too Im the CL let me try to help..Cherie762

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