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Mar 02, 2010 - 16 comments

Today is March 2 and I woke up greeted by AF. I really knew she was coming but it is still such a let down. I've been at this since 2008, I know to some thats a long time and to others not close.  This month my beautiful baby boy should be turning 1 and i'm starting to feel very empty, I should be planning a huge birthday party for him but instead i'll be sending a balloon to heaven. Why is life in general made to be so difficult???

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by lori0615, Mar 02, 2010
I feel you, next month marks 3 years since my miscarriage. My son or daughter would be a 2 and half right now, my heart just breaks when I see someone with a 2 year old at the park or store cause that should be me.

I'm sending up prayers for you.

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by 1angelbabyM, Mar 02, 2010
I'm so sorry!!  I kinda know how you feel. I tested today at 13DPO and got a BFN.  March 30 2010 was my EDD from my m/c and this has already been a very emotional month and it's only March 2!  I'm so sorry and I pray for you and all of my medhelp family every day!  I know what you mean about know this is not the month; however, you still hold on to that glimmer of hope, wishing your body will prove you wrong.  I go through that every month and I bet everyone else does too.  I pray that one day soon we can all see that BFP and deliver a healthy baby in the end.  I'm still holding out hope for all of us, so please don't give up just yet!!  Sending SSBD to you for your next cycle!  ((Hugs)) to you and all of the other strong women out there fighting this battle!  

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by 1angelbabyM, Mar 02, 2010
...Knowing this is not the month...
oops!

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by anxiouslywaiting910, Mar 02, 2010
I definately feel your pain. I should have gave birth to baby number 1 around Christmas 09. Instead, I lost baby number 2 chirstmas day 09. Every now and then life just plays out the WRONG way. xxxhugsxxx and lots of prayers!!!

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by 12121980, Mar 02, 2010
I know what u r going through... I should have had a 8 months baby now, but i lost it at 7 weeks! when i see small kids in the mall or tram.. i feel like taking a grab!!

BuT  do stay postive and have faith in GOD!! I m sure all your prayers will be answered..

Sending u some sticky baby dust!!

joy

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by k10road, Mar 02, 2010
Lori, I'm sorry.  (((((HUGS)))))

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by steph9803, Mar 02, 2010
I'm so sorry Lori......I was just thinking how mine would have been one next week :( I can't believe where the time has gone. You know I'm here if you need anything. I wish there was more I could do for you. Luv ya

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by adgal, Mar 02, 2010
You know, there is just no answer to that question.  Bad things happen to good people, and sometimes life can just suck.  It's not fair and it's not right.  All we can do is move forward and try to work through it.  I'm sorry honey, I wish things had been different.  What is the date?  I would like to send a balloon for your little man as well.  Let him know he is remembered by many and how much we love his momma.  

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by bam1014, Mar 02, 2010
:***(  I"m so sorry hun . . . . our baby would have been 1 yo this month too . . .

I wished I lived next door to you so we could sit on the couch in our pajamas with your salt and vinegar chips and my chips and french onion dip and then we could watch Steel Magnolias and have a regular 'ol bawl fest surrounded by snotty klenexes.  But you know I'm there with you in spirit as I know you are here for me.

pillar to pillar

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by smr08, Mar 02, 2010
Thank you so much everyone, I guess I just needed to jot down how I was feeling. Af sure didn't help much.

Lori0-soon it will be you at the park with your son and a new little one

angelbaby- i'm holding on to that hope also....someday soon :)

Tausha- soon it will play out the right way for all of us ((hugs))

Joy- it "WILL" happen, it "WILL" happen (me staying positive)

Kristen- thanks sweetie. How are you doing?? ((HUGS))

Steph, can you believe it was that long ago that we met?? Luv ya to!

Amanda- he was due on the 27th, 3 days before his daddy's birthday. I'm sure Salvatore would love to get a balloon from you, Warren and Ryder, such a beautiful sentiment from a beautiful woman. xoxo

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by songinmind, Mar 02, 2010
Lori- I know how your heart feels.  I would have been giving birth to my first baby this week (3/5/10).  Everyday that's the first thought my mind wanders to when I'm feeling low.  I have been dreading this date, and even more so when I lost my second one.  August 18 for that little bean that I won't ever know.

But we're strong and we'll keep trying and praying...  I'm sorry things are tough for you now, too.

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by smr08, Mar 02, 2010
Bridgette- What would I do without you??????

songinmind- sending you a big hug! We are strong and our dreams "WILL" come true.

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by DMarie919, Mar 03, 2010
Lori, I am sorry.  I know the struggles we've all been through and I only wish I knew why any of us have to endure this pain.  I do know that for some reason, part of God's plan for you is to be a support to other ladies who share the same experiences, and though it's not always the role that you had planned, it is one that is important and I can tell you that I have been grateful for meeting you a year ago.  You have been a strength, and inspiration and a blessing.  And, eventhough you don't feel that way some days, I appreciate you. :)

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by usuk, Mar 03, 2010
I am sorry. I have lost 3 babies. And so it average out that like every other month is either the month I lost the baby or the month I should have had the baby. And it hurts when there is nothing else or no one to focus on. Hang in there. XOXO. I grew up in PA. Where do you live????

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by smr08, Mar 03, 2010
Dana, that was so sweet of you. I'll be around for a long time, with or without my BFP(darn, I hope i'm not 90 and still checking for EWCM!)LOL! You are all my girls and I could never survive without you! ((HUGS))

usuk- it is tough, I had 4 losses, I delivered my son at almost 5 months but no loss is ever easy, you always think about what should have been.

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by BPil, Mar 15, 2010
I'm sorry - but don't lose hope!!!

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