Mar 02, 2010
I absolutely could not sleep last night. We are ttc and if I am or do get pregnant who is to say that the same thing won't happen all over again. My precious Hunter never got the chance to live outside of me. I know it is the chance we are taking and my dh says try to stay positive. I can't help the what ifs in my mind though. I finally got to sleep around 4am and when I woke up I was thinking of Hunter. I was almost daydreaming about his little feet and hands, how incredibly perfect he was in my eyes. The nurses did a mold of his feet and hands and it turned out great. I am so thankful that I have that because his actual prints did not turn out well. Now as time goes by everything feels like a dream. It is sad, I don't want to forget any detail. I should be 25 weeks with a round belly feeling his kicks and hiccups, but here I am empty. Thanks I just needed to vent.