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my whole body is ******* aching this is ******* TORTURE

Jul 13, 2008 - 10 comments

i cant sleep all i am is pain nothing else but PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! what gets me through is this: some one who is paralysed would LOVE to be able to FEEL!


ARGGGGHHH METHADONE IS ******* HELLL, WHY DIDNT I CHOOSE HEROIN??????





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547883 tn?1218796026
by genix, Jul 13, 2008
**** CHOOSE LIFE

544292 tn?1268886268
by EmilyPost, Jul 13, 2008
((((genix))))

I'm so sorry for your pain and then more pain on top of the pain and add some more pain to that I would imagine.

It's good that you have perspective. Yes, You are right. A person who was paralysed would love to be able to feel that. Or walk. You didn't choose Heroin I think because you want to get off all drugs? Eventually?

My Brother is a computer science guy. He loves it so much.

Torture *****. I am praying that your body will adjust and you'll one day be able to get off all the drugs.

More hugs,
Emily

544292 tn?1268886268
by EmilyPost, Jul 13, 2008
Life is better. It's a good choice.



548113 tn?1240965361
by crissy430, Jul 13, 2008
So sorry you are in so much pain. My ex's brother is not feeling anymore pain from his herion addiction. He died of an overdose 2 yrs ago. Please stay fighting maybe you should be hospitalized if it get's to much to bare. I will hold you in my prayers man. Please keep fighting the good fight....

544292 tn?1268886268
by EmilyPost, Jul 13, 2008
Crissy I am so sorry for your loss.

I once saw a neighbor of miine almost OD and die on Heroin. I saw him stumble out of the house and collapse face first. I called 911, then screamed at his friends to tell me what he was on. They finally told me as I was clearing the face full of dirt up, so he could breathe, then I stuffed a bag of ice down his pants (that will yank a guy awake) and the ambulance took him.

The EMT's kept telling me I had saved his life and he should be grateful to me. He never looked me in the face ever again. Too ashamed I think. I don't think I saved his life at all. I just happened to right there as he almost OD-ed. He moved away and I always wonder if he ever got off or if he is now dead.

The pain of life is better (even in crazy w/d) than death or continued pills or drugs.

I am with Crissy Genix ... we both wish we could be with you and distract you or comfort you. I also wonder if you need to go to an ER? It must be better in AUS than in the US? I hope!?

Breathe. Just try to Breath Genix.

Love and healing,
Emily

547883 tn?1218796026
by genix, Jul 14, 2008
ok pain is gone now, hot women sending me nice messages and i got my uni results 2 HD's oh and two valium and some codeine , im feeling a million dollars, im so hungry i just ate and entire box of cereal, thanks again girls

547883 tn?1218796026
by genix, Jul 14, 2008
oh yea medicine is great here , government pays for everything aand what they dont pay for cost pretty much nothing, i was probably being just a sook i had not slept in two nights and was aching and i just needed some relief,im now at 14 days no heroin or methadone, i gota say methadone makes heroin look like candy

548113 tn?1240965361
by crissy430, Jul 14, 2008
I had 2 valium and spent $700. on a spure of the moment shopping spree idk which one got my more gone...lol

547883 tn?1218796026
by genix, Jul 14, 2008
hmm, i  really like you crissy i am VERY glad we never lived near one another, i think it would have been disaster X 2 . By the way i dont think ill ever sleep again, im living two lives, i never really slept before taking methadone/heroin but now i cant sleep at all, i just sit on my computer ( it has three monitors , kinda looks like a cockpit ) and listen to music and try find people to talk to, and in the day i just eat , am i ever going to sleep, what do you or did you guys do?

547883 tn?1218796026
by genix, Jul 14, 2008
ahh retail therapy, it can get you really high

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