Mar 10, 2010
I did all the calcuations in the Patrick Holford Optimum Nutrition Bible and got a list of exactly what supplements and quantities he reckons I need. Of course I have no idea if I can actually trust this book or whether I would be better seeing a practitioner but after my last experience going down that route I am more comfortable making my own decisions and trying to educate myself to make my own decisions. So now I have a big load of supplements - on top of the multivit and mineral complex, Vit C, b vit complex, omega 3 that I was taking I now also have extra Vit E, extra mineral complex particularly for Chromiun, Evening Primrose Oil for Omega 6 nutrients and a good probiotic. I'm trying to be proactive and sort myself out.....
I felt really sad in the shop (Nutri Centre). The nutritionist was telling me that people need to take the supplements that give them the results they need and I was just feeling as though nothing is giving me the results I need and I just felt hopeless, it was quite embarrassing, I could feel tears welling up in my eyes as I was talking to him.
I went to the store loo and saw myself in the mirror, I was all red in the face and wild looking, really unwell looking.
After being back at work these last few days, it's scary that I can still get as emotional and knackered as I have been today, it makes me really question whether I am on the mend or not. I'm so scared and freaked out.
My friends Mum rang me about something and I ended up crying on the phone to her. Now I feel like I can't talk to anyone incase I get upset like that again. It's not fair on other people to hit them with that emotion. Oh god, what a mess.
what a mess, what a mess, what a mess.