Oct 03, 2015
just feel like giving up during the recovery process. I feel weak and lame for saying it, I'm not looking for pity or such...I just feel defeated and that just makes me want to give up. I feel empowered that I made it through the surgery-that's what I thought was going to be the hard part....I didn't fully think past the surgery & the immediate recovery in hospital. I didn't think of this part....and I will cry even though I know it will make my muscles tense, and give more pressure to an already pressure cooker head....because I don't know what else to do. That's all I know how to do right now. I'm tired of fighting pain. It's draining me of energy where I have nothing left to give.i feel like I'm fighting it for all but 2hr. increments a few times a day....maybe 2 hrs. Out of every 8hrs, are the times I can breathe easily/not writhe in pain. Other than those 2-3 times a day, I'm here, miserable. Unable to get rest or any breath. I've hit a wall.