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Slow start today and procrastinating

Mar 16, 2010 - 0 comments
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complicated grief

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mother

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Death

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procrastination

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daddy

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slow start

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pressure

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Pain



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I got home from work at 7:15 a.m. and went straight to bed because of all the interruptions last night. (911 calls etc...)  I have plans for today but can't seem to get motivated.  I finally got into the shower around 11:45 a.m. but now I am back at this computer and putting off the inevitable...cleaning house.  I have to do it too because we might have company later and I would be very embarassed if they saw this house.  After I finish this journal entry I promised myself that I would at least start and not put too much pressure on myself to be perfect about it.  
I am starting my 4 days off and I hope to get up to the valley to see my daddy, he is so lonely since my mama passed away.  Everytime I think about her I hurt all over.  Its been almost 5 months and I am still supressing the pain.  I promised my mama before she died that I would "take care of myself".  I have so much to work on that it is almost overwhelming.   I plan on just working on one thing a day at random and chart it on this website.  

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